Asphodel : $b a novelBraddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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Asphodel : $b a novel
Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
English fiction -- 19th century
‘My dearest, I don’t think he has any idea of amusing himself without
you in Switzerland. How tired you look, my poor pet! Go and lie down
and get a nice refreshing sleep after your walk. You shall not be
disturbed till I come myself to bring you some tea. That will be better
for you than coming down to luncheon.’
‘I don’t feel much inclined for sleep, though I confess to being tired.
I should like you to come and sit with me for a little, Lina, soon
after luncheon, if you don’t mind.’
‘Mind! My darling, as if I were not always glad to be with you.’
Daphne went slowly up to her room, very slowly, with automatic steps,
as one who walks in his sleep. The dark gray eyes looked straight into
space, fixed and heavy with despair.
‘He is mad, and I am mad,’ she said to herself. ‘How can it
end—except——’
Her room was bright and pretty, gaily furnished in that bright foreign
style which studies scenic effect rather than solid comfort; French
windows opening upon a balcony, shaded with a striped awning. The
windows looked on to the lake, across the bright blue water to the
opposite shore, with its grand and solitary hills, its villages few
and far apart. Daphne stood for a long while looking dreamily at the
expanse of bright water, and the bold and rugged shore beyond; at
Chillon in its rocky corner; at the deep dark gorge whence the yellow
Rhone comes rushing in, staining Lake Loman’s azure floor. How lovely
it all was—how lovely, and yet of how little account in the sum of
man’s destiny! All Nature’s loveliness was powerless to mend one broken
heart.
‘What was it that he read on my hand that day at Fontainebleau?’ she
asked herself. ‘Was it this? was it this?’
A steamer went by laden with people, a band playing a waltz tune. The
world seemed full of thoughtless souls, for whom life meant only idle
empty pleasures. Daphne turned away from that sunlit scene sick at
heart, wishing that she were lying quietly in one of those green dells
through which they had passed to-day, a leafy hollow hidden in the
hillside, and that life were ebbing away without an effort.
‘Seneca was a wise and learned man,’ she thought; ‘but with all his
wisdom he found it difficult to die. Cleopatra’s death sounds easier—a
basket of fruit and a little gliding snake a bright pretty creature
that a child might have played with, and been stung to death unawares.’
She threw herself on the bed, not tired from her walk, which seemed
as nothing to the lithe active limbs, but weary of life and its
perplexities. Oh, how he loved her, and how she loved him! And what a
glorious godlike thing life would be in his company! Glorious, but it
must not be; godlike, but honour barred the way.
‘Oh God! let me never forget what she has been to me,’ she prayed, with
clasped hands, with all her soul in that prayer—‘sister, mother, all
the world of love, and protection, and comfort—teach me to be true to
her; teach me to be loyal.’
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