Thus, for a year, the object of his real displeasure and her affected
commiseration lived under a cloud, too proud to complain of her
thraldom, but feeling it every second; mourning, in the seclusion of
the trebly barred chambers of her heart, over her shattered idol and
squandered affections, and fancying, in the morbid distrust engendered
by the discovery of her lover's baseness, and the weight of her
brother's unsparing reprobation of her insane imprudence, that she
descried in every face, save Aunt Rachel's, contempt or rebuke for the
faux pas that had so nearly cast a stigma upon her name and lineage.
In Herbert Dorrance's honest admiration and assiduous courtship the
most suspicious scrutiny could detect no tincture of either of these
feelings, and it was not long before she took refuge in his society from
the risk of being wounded and angered by the supposed exhibition of them
in others. Here was one man who could not but know of her folly, in
all its length, breadth, and depth, who was a witness of her daily
chastisement for it at her guardian's hands, yet who esteemed her
unsullied by the unworthy attachment, undegraded by punishment.
Gratitude had a powerful auxiliary in her feverish longing to escape
from scenes that kept alive to the quick, memories she would have
annihilated, had her ability been commensurate with her will. All other
associations with the house in which she, and her father before her, had
been born, and in which she had passed her childhood and girlish days,
were overrun by the thickly thronging and pertinacious recollections
of the two short weeks Frederic Chilton had spent there with her. He
haunted her walks and drives; trod, by her side, the resounding floor of
the vine-covered portico, sat with her in parlor and halls; sang to her
accompaniment when she would have exorcised the phantom by music--was
always, whenever and wherever he appeared--the tender, ingenuous, manly
youth she had loved and reverenced as the impersonation of her ideal
lord; the demi-god whom she had worshipped, heart and soul--set, in
her exulting imagination no lower than the angels, and beheld in the
end,--with besmirched brow and debased mien, a disgraced sensualist,
not merely a deceiver of another woman's innocent confidence, and her
tempter to dishonor and wretchedness, but a poltroon--a whipped coward
who had not dared to lift voice or pen in denial or extenuation of his
crime.
The law of reaction is of more nearly universal application in moral and
in physical science than men are willing to believe. We have seen how
cunningly Rosa calculated upon it, and wiser people than she, every day,
attribute the most momentous actions of their lives to its influence.
“My advice to every woman is to marry for GOODNESS--simple integrity of
word and deed!” said a lady, once in my hearing.
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