Mabel neither opposed nor sustained the theory. She had slept so ill
herself as to know how restless he had been; had heard his hardly
suppressed sighs and tossings to and fro, infallible indications with
him of serious perturbation. Had his discomfort been bodily only, he
would have felt no compunction in calling her to his aid, as he had
done scores of times. Her sleepless hours had also been fraught with
melancholy disquiet. Putting away from her--with firmness begotten by
virtue born of will--and so much of this thoughtfulness as pertained to
the bygone days with which Frederic Chilton was inseparable associated,
she yet deliberated seriously upon the expediency of speaking out
courageously to Herbert of the relation this man had once borne to
her, the incidents of their recent meeting, and the effect she saw was
produced upon her husband's mind by the sight of him.
“If we would have this negative happiness continue, this matter ought
to be settled at once and forever,” she said, inwardly. “He must not
suspect me of weak and wicked clinging to the phantoms of my youth; must
believe that I do not harbor a regret or wish incompatible with my duty
as his wife. I will avail myself of the first favorable moment to assure
him of the folly of his fears and of his discomfort.”
Another consideration--the natural sequence of her conviction of his
unhappiness--was a touching appeal to her woman's heart. If he had
not loved her more fervently than his phlegmatic temperament and
undemonstrative bearing would induce one to suppose, he would not dread
the rekindling of her olden fancy for another. The image of him who,
she had confessed, had taught her the depth and weight of her own
affections, whom she had loved as she had never professed to care for
him, would not have haunted his pillow to chase sleep, and torture him
with forebodings.
“I must make him comprehend that Mabel Aylett at twenty, wilful,
romantic, and undisciplined, was a different being from the woman who
has called him 'husband,' without a blush, for fourteen years!”
It was these recollections that softened her kindly tones to tenderness;
made the pressure of her hand upon his temples a caress, rather than a
manual appliance for deadening pain; while she combated his intention of
appearing at the breakfast-table.
“Lie down upon the sofa!” she entreated. “Let me bring up a cup of
strong coffee for you; then darken the room, and chafe your head until
you fall asleep, since you turn a deaf ear to all proposals of mustard
foot-baths and Dr. Van Orden's panacea pills.”
“No!” stubbornly. “Aylett and Clara would think it strange. They do not
understand how a slight irregularity of diet or habit can produce such a
result. They would attribute it to other causes. I may feel better when
I have taken something nourishing.”
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