London (England) -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Women artists -- Fiction
“I do wish it, Clytie,” he said in a softened voice. “You can go your
way, I will go mine. But we must live together as far as the world sees
us.”
Clytie yielded with some misgivings, and set herself to work to discover
interests in life.
The society life of London, in which she was free to play an important
part, did not satisfy her. She saw too deep below the surface of things
to be guilty of the silly cynicism that finds society hollow, its
aims futile, and its morals corrupt. There is earnestness even among
cultivated men and women. But society is formal, conventional, and in
the external rules of life differs only in degree from Durdleham. True,
it has a far wider intellectual scope. Contrary to Durdleham, it permits
the possession of ideas, but it is just as punctilious as to their
correct expression. The elaborate ceremonial of society weighed upon
Clytie. She preferred a simpler, directer life. There were so many
wrappings of convention to be pierced through before she could get to
the heart of a thing or a person, and they wearied, irritated her. And
now, as Thornton seemed to care very little whether she placed herself
in evidence or not, beyond playing the part of hostess in his house, she
consulted merely her own desires in her acceptance of invitations. But
as the circle from which these mainly proceeded was that into which her
husband's reputation, tastes, and political aspirations had led her, she
did not find in it the interests which particularly affected her. It was
beyond her power either to feel or to simulate an interest in Thornton's
ambitions. Nor did she feel called upon now to profess the tenets of
Thornton's political creed. She was a solitary, unconventional Radical
in the midst of the most uncompromising Torydom, which is an unenviable
position even for the least rabid politician. The political section,
therefore, of her social circle she studiously avoided. The purely
fashionable, frivolous element, that goes to Hurlingham and Ascot, and
makes itself merry over material things, had attracted her the previous
year with its graceful epicureanism. She had still been proud of her
husband and his boyish zest in amusement, and she had caught from him
the spirit of laughing Babylon. But now it was pain to be with him
when he chatted and jested with pretty girls and idle young men. His
light-hearted gaiety jarred upon her. She saw that men and women were
affected by his charm, and she had half longings to tell them it was a
lie. So she withdrew herself from their midst as much as possible. By
this process of elimination Clytie's circle became conveniently limited.
She was sick at heart, and she turned more and more to the friends of
her girlhood.
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