At the Mercy of TiberiusEvans, Augusta J. (Augusta Jane)
History
At the Mercy of Tiberius
Evans, Augusta J. (Augusta Jane)
Rome -- History -- Tiberius, 14-37 -- Fiction
He locked the door, and Beryl found herself at last alone, in the
dreary little den where a single gas burner served only to show the
surrounding cheerlessness. The furniture comprised a wooden bench along
the wall, two chairs, and a table in the middle of the floor; and on
the dusty panes of the grated window, a ray of ruddy light from a lamp
post in the street beneath, broke through the leaden lances of the
rain, and struggled for admission.
The neurotic pharmacopoeia contains nothing so potent as despair to
steady quivering nerves, and steel to superhuman endurance. For Beryl,
the pendulum of suspense had ceased to swing, because the spring of
hope had snapped; and the complete surrender, the mute acceptance of
the worst possible to come, had left her numb, impervious to dread. As
one by one the discovered facts spelled unmistakably the name of her
brother, allowing no margin to doubt his guilt, the necessity of
atonement absorbed every other consideration; and the desire to avert
his punishment extinguished the last remnant of selfish anxiety. If by
suffering in his stead, she could secure to him life--the opportunities
of repentance, of expiation, of making his peace with God, of saving
his immortal soul--how insignificant seemed all else. The innate love
of life, the natural yearning for happiness, the once fervent
aspirations for fame--the indescribable longing for the fruition of
youth's high hopes, which like a Siren sang somewhere in the golden
mists of futurity--all these were now crushed beyond recognition in the
whirlwind that had wrecked her.
Her father slept under silvery olives in a Tuscan dell, her mother
within hearing of the waves that broke on the Atlantic shore; and if
the wanderer could be purified by penitential tears, what mattered the
shattering of the family circle on earth, when in the eternal Beyond,
it would be indissolubly reformed? Over the black gulf that yawned in
her young, pure life, the wings of her Christian faith bore her
steadily, unwaveringly to the heavenly rest, that she knew remained for
the people of God; and so, she seemed to have shaken hands with the
things of time and earth, and to stand on the border land, girded for
departure. To meet her beloved dead, with the blessed announcement that
Bertie must join them after a while, because she had ransomed his
precious soul; and that the family would be complete under the heavenly
roof, was recompense so rich, that the fangs of disgrace, of physical
and mental torture were effectually extracted. By day and by night the
ladder of prayer lifted her soul into that serene realm, where the
fountains of balm are never drained; and into her face stole the
reflection of that peace which only communion with the Christian's God
can bring to those whom grief has claimed for its own.
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