At the Mercy of TiberiusEvans, Augusta J. (Augusta Jane)
History
At the Mercy of Tiberius
Evans, Augusta J. (Augusta Jane)
Rome -- History -- Tiberius, 14-37 -- Fiction
After a few moments, a dose of the medicine was successfully
administered; and then the slender, shapely brown hand of the woman
grasped the nurse's blue homespun dress.
"Don't leave me! Save me. Oh, don't let me strangle here alone--in the
dark; don't let me die! I'm not fit. I know where I shall go. It's not
the devil I dread; I have known many devils in this world,--but God. I
am afraid of God!"
"Lie down, and cover your shoulders. If it comforts you to have me, I
will stay gladly. The doctor, the warden, all of us will do what we can
to cure you; but the help you need most, can come only from one whose
pity is greater and tenderer than ours, your merciful God. Lift up your
heart in prayer to him; ask him to forgive your sins, and spare you to
lead a better life."
"He would not hear, because He knows how black my heart has been all
these years; since I gave myself up to hate and cursing. You can't
understand--you are not one of us. You are as much out of place here,
as one of the angels would be, held over the flames of torment till the
wings singed. From the first time we saw you in the chapel, and more
and more ever since, we found out you did not belong here. I have been
so wicked--so wicked--!"
She paused, panting, then hurried on.
"When the chaplain tried to talk to me, and gave me a book to read, I
dashed it back in his face, and insulted him. One Saturday they sent me
to sweep out and dust the chapel, and when I finished, I laid down on
one of the benches to rest. You went in to practise, not knowing I was
there; and began to sing. As I listened, something seemed to stir and
wake up in my heart, and somehow the music shook me out of myself.
There was one hymn, so solemn, so thrilling, and the end of every verse
was, 'Oh, Lamb of God! I come!'--and you sang it with a great cry, as
if you were running to meet some one. I had not wept--for oh! I don't
know how long--not since--. Then you played on the organ some
variations on a tune--'The Sweet By-and-by'--and the tears started, and
I seemed but a leaf in a wild storm. That was the song my little boy
used to sing! There was a Sunday-school in the basement of a church
next to our house, and he would stand at the window, and listen till he
caught the tune, and learned the words. Oh, that hymn! Every note stung
me like a whip lash when I heard it again. My child's face as I saw him
the last time I put him to bed; when he opened his drowsy eyes, and
raised up to kiss me good-night, came back to me, and seemed to sing,
'In the sweet by-and-by, we shall meet on that beautiful shore.'
No--never--never! Oh, my boy! My beautiful angel Max--there is no room
for me, on that heavenly shore! Oh! my darling--there is NO 'Sweet
by-and-by' FOR MOTHER NOW."
She had started up, with arms clasped around her knees, and her
convulsed face lifted toward the low ceiling of the cell, writhed, as
she drew her breath in hissing gasps.
"You loved your little boy?"
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