“I had an engagement in the morning,” she began, and hesitated. “When I
had fulfilled it,” she went on, “I thought it right, Florence, to go and
call on Sir William Rammage. He has been ill, and I wanted to assure him
of my sympathy. Besides, I felt that it was due to you—that it was an
imperative duty on my part to ask him for an allowance, and that it was
his duty to give it to me.”
“But, Aunt Anne——”
“Yes, my love. I am living now on your generous kindness; don’t think
that I am insensible to it. But for your tenderness, my darling, I
should have been alone in a little lodging now, as I was when—when I
was first left a widow.”
“I should not like to think of you in a little lodging, Aunt Anne,”
Florence said gently; and then she added gaily, “but continue your
adventures.”
Mrs. Baines gave a long sigh, and was silent for a moment. She sat down
on the easy-chair and, as if she had not heard Florence’s interruption,
went on with a strange tragic note in her voice—
“I never told you about that time, Florence. I had three pounds in the
world when I came to London; just three pounds to maintain my position
until I could find something to do. I had a little room at Kilburn—a
little room at the top of the house; and I used to sit day after day,
week after week, waiting. I had no coals, only a little spirit-lamp by
which I made some water hot, then poured it into a jug and covered it
over and warmed my hands by it; it was often an hour before it grew
cold, my love.”
“But why did you not come to us?”
“I couldn’t,” the old lady answered in an obstinate tone. “I felt that
it would not be treating you properly to present myself before you while
I was so poor and miserable”—she paused and looked into the fire for a
moment, then suddenly went on: “The woman at the corner where I went
every morning to buy a newspaper, saw that I was poor, and presumed upon
it. Once she said I looked nipped up, and asked me to sit down and get
warm. I reproved her for familiarity, and never went to the shop again.”
“But perhaps she meant it for kindness?”
“She should have remembered her position, my love, and asked me in a
different manner. There is nothing more painful to bear than the
remembrance of one’s own rank in life when one has to encounter the
hardships that belong by right to a lower class.” Aunt Anne paused again
for a moment, and gave a long sigh before she went on: “We won’t go over
it, my dear. If Mrs. North had shown less levity in her conduct and more
consideration to me, I should have been there still instead of living on
your charity.”
“Oh no, Aunt Anne.”
“Yes, my love, it is so; even though you love me and I love you, it is
charity; and I felt it keenly when you resented my little offering of
cream this morning—you, to whom I would give everything I possess.”
“Oh no, Aunt Anne——” interrupted Florence.
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