I confess that whatever the deficiences of my home training, I had not
been brought up to think that anybody lied. My mother never seemed to
think it possible that any of her children could lie. In fact, lying was
the last vice of childhood I was acquainted with. You told the truth as
you breathed, without thinking of it, for the simple reason that it
could not possibly occur to you not to tell the truth. This was, I knew,
how I took it, though I did not reason so. I believe it was that villain
Frank who broke a statue of an angel, and behind my back asserted that
he had seen me do it. I had no objection in the world to break forty
statues if it came in the day's work, and so far from concealing my
misdeeds, I was safe to glory in any iniquity I could accomplish. So
when charged with the broken angel, I said, saucily enough I have no
doubt--oh! I have no wish to make light of the provocations of my
enemies--that I hadn't done it.
The Grand Inquisitor was a lovely slim young nun, with a dainty gipsy
face, all brown and golden, full-cheeked, pink-lipped, black-browed. I
see her still, the exquisite monster, with her long slim fingers, as
delicate as ivory, and the perfidious witchery of her radiant dark
smile.
"You mustn't tell lies, Angela. You were seen to break the statue."
I stood up in vehement protest, words poured from me in a flood; they
gushed from me like life-blood flowing from my heart, and in my passion
I flung my books on the floor, and vowed I would never eat again, but
that I'd die first, to make them all feel miserable because they had
murdered me. And then the pretty Inquisitor carried me off, dragging me
after her with that veiled brutality of gesture that marks your refined
tyrant. I was locked up in the old community-room, then reserved for
guests, a big white chamber, with a good deal of heavy furniture in it.
"You'll stay here, Angela, until I come to let you out," she hissed at
me.
I heard the key turn in the lock, and my heart was full of savage hate.
I sat and brooded long on the vengeance I desired to wreak. Sister
Esmeralda had said she would come at her good will to let me out. "Very
well," thought I, wickedly; "when she comes she'll not find it so easy
to get in."
My desire was to thwart her in her design to free me when she had a mind
to. My object was to die of hunger alone and forsaken in that big white
chamber, and so bring remorse and shame upon my tyrants. So, with
laboured breath and slow impassioned movements, I dragged over to the
door all the furniture I could move. In my ardour I accomplished feats I
could never have aspired to in saner moments. A frail child of eight, I
nevertheless wheeled arm-chairs, a sofa, a heavy writing-table, every
seat except a small stool, and even a cupboard, and these I massed
carefully at the door as an obstruction against the entrance of my
enemy.
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