"My brothers, I am a miserable sinner. In Australia I murdered a man; I
drank continually, I thieved, I ran after harlots, and led the life of
debauchery. Oh, my friends, pray for me, for now I am converted and know
Jesus. I am one of the just, may I remain so. But wicked and debauched
and drunken as I was, there were lots more out there much worse than I."
In summing up our errors and frailties, it is always a kindly comfort
offered our conceit to think that there are on all sides of us "lots
more much worse than we." Unless our pride chooses to take refuge in the
opposite reflection, so we prefer to glory in being much worse than
others.
And so ends my single interview with an eminent ecclesiastic. He kissed
me repeatedly, and stroked my hair while I munched my plum-cake on his
knee. He questioned me, and discovered my passionate interest in
Napoleon and Josephine and the Queen of Prussia, the King-maker, and the
children in the Tower. And then, having prophesied my early death and
luminous or lurid career, he filled my two small hands with almond-drops
and toffee, and sent me away, a being henceforth of something more than
common clay.
From that hour my position in Lysterby was improved. I was never even
slapped again, though I had had the stupendous good luck to see, unseen
myself, the lay-sister who had flogged me go into a cupboard on the
staircase, whose door, with the key on the outside, opened outward, and
crawling along on hands and knees, reached the door in time to lock her
in. I was also known to have climbed fruit-trees, when I robbed enough
unripe fruit to make all the little ones ill. Yet nobody beat me, and I
was let off with a sharp admonishment. I went my unruly way, secretly
protected by the bishop's admiration.
If I did not amend, and loved none the more my tyrants, their rule being
less drastic, I had less occasion to fly out at them. Besides,
semi-starvation had subdued me for the while. I suffered continually
from abscesses and earache, and spent most of my time in the infirmary,
dreaming and reading.
Chapter XX.
HOME FOR THE HOLIDAYS.
Home for the holidays! What a joyous sound the words have for little
ears! Holidays--home! Two iridiscent words of rainbow-promise,
expectation in all its warm witchery of dream and enchantment, of
indolence and eager activity, of impulses unrestrained, and of constant
caresses. For me, alas! how much less they meant than for happier
children; but even to me the change was delightful, and I welcomed the
hopes it contained with all the lively emotions of imaginative
childhood. First there was the excitement of the voyage, then the fresh
acquaintance with the land I had left two years ago, my own quaint and
melancholy land I was about to behold again through foreign glasses;
then the captivation of my importance in the family circle, the
wonderful things to tell, the revelations, the surprises, embroidered
fact so close upon the hidden heels of invention!
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account