When I parted from you I should have been blind indeed had I failed
to notice how scornfully you repudiated my suggestion that you should
replace the amulet in the tomb from which it had been stolen. I did
not then know that the tomb was your father's. Had I known it my
suggestion would have been much more emphatic. I saw that you had
the greatest difficulty in refraining from laughing in my face when I
said to you that you would eventually replace it. Yes, you had great
difficulty in refraining from laughing. I did not take offence. I
felt sure that the cross was in some way connected with the young
lady you had lost in Wales, but I could not guess how. Had you told
me that the cross had been taken from your father's tomb I should no
doubt have connected it with the cry of 'Father' which had, I knew,
several times been uttered in Wilderspin's studio by the model in her
paroxysms, and I should have earlier done what I was destined to
do--I should earlier have brought you together. From sympathy that
sprang from a deep experience I knew you better than you knew
yourself. When I learnt from Sinfi Lovell that you had fulfilled
my prophecy I did not laugh. Tears rather than laughter would have
been more in my mood, for I realised the martyrdom you must have
suffered before you were impelled to do it. I knew how you must
have been driven by sorrow--driven against all the mental methods
and traditions of your life--into the arms of supernaturalism.
But you were simply doing what Hamlet would have done in such
circumstances--what Macbeth would have done, and what he would have
done who spoke to the human heart through their voices. All men, I
believe, have Macbeth's instinct for making 'assurance doubly sure,'
and I cannot imagine the man who, entangled as you were in a net of
conflicting evidence--the evidence of the spiritual and the
evidence of the natural world--would not, if the question were that
of averting a curse from acting on a beloved mistress, have done as
you did. That paralysis of Hamlet's will which followed when the
evidence of two worlds hung in equipoise before him, no one can
possibly understand better than I. For it was exactly similar to my
own condition on that never-to-be-forgotten night when she whom I
lost...
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