German fiction -- Translations into English; Holy Roman Empire -- History -- Charles V, 1519-1556 -- Fiction
It was evident enough that her pitiful allowance did not proceed from
the Emperor’s avarice; Charles only wished to force her to obey his wish
to shut her for the rest of her life in a cloister. The mother of his
son must remain concealed from the world; he desired to spare him in
after years the embarrassment of meeting the woman whose birth was so
much more humble than his own and his father’s. Want should drive her
from the world, and, to hasten her flight, the shrewd adept in reading
human nature showed her in the distance the abbess’s cross, and tried
thereby to arouse her ambition.
But in her childhood and youth Barbara had been accustomed to still
plainer living than she could grant herself in future, and she would
have been miserable in the most magnificent palace if she had been
compelled to relinquish her independence. Rather death in the Danube
than to dispense with it!
She was young, healthy, and vigorous, and it seemed like voluntary
mutilation to resign her liberty at twenty-one. But even had she felt
the need of the lonely cell, quiet contemplation, and more severe
penance than had been imposed upon her in the confessional, she would
still have remained in the world; for the more plainly the letter showed
how eagerly Charles desired to force her out of it, the more firmly
she resolved to remain in it. How many hopes this base epistle had
destroyed; it seemed as though it had killed the last spark of love in
her soul!
Too much kindness leads to false paths scarcely more surely than the
contrary, and the Emperor’s cruel decision destroyed and hardened
many of the best feelings in Barbara’s heart, and prepared a place for
resentment and hatred.
The great sovereign’s love, which had been the sunshine of her life, was
lost; her child had been taken from her; even the home that sheltered
her, and which hitherto she had regarded as a token of its father’s
kindly care, was now withdrawn. A new life path must be found, but
she would not set out upon it from the Golden Cross, where her brief
happiness had bloomed, but from the place where she had experienced the
penury of her childhood and early youth.
The very next afternoon she moved into Wolf’s house. Sister Hyacinthe
was obliged to return to her convent, so no one accompanied her except
Frau Lamperi. She had become attached to Barbara, and therefore remained
in her service instead of returning to the Queen of Hungary. True, she
had not determined to do so until her mistress had promised to remain
only a few weeks in Ratisbon at the utmost, and then move to Brussels,
where she longed to be.
Ratisbon was no home for the Emperor’s former favourite. Life in her
native city would have been one long chain of humiliations, now that she
had nothing to offer her fellow-citizens except the satisfaction of a
curiosity which was not always benevolent.
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