"That, then, was what Miss Berwick meant when she said he could never
marry." Barbara seemed to be speaking to herself, but the words fell on
O'Flaherty's ear with an unpleasing significance. His mind made a sudden
leap. Could Arabella be planning--oh! what a horrible suspicion
concerning the woman he had once loved! But it came back again and again
during the hour which followed. Had he not himself thought Miss Berwick
was doing all in her power to throw her brother and Mrs. Rebell
together?
He went on speaking, as if impelled to say what he really thought.
"Well, such a thing as that is enough to test a man's character. From
being a poor man, practically dependent on his uncle, Berwick became the
owner of almost unlimited money, to the possession of which, however,
was attached a clause which meant that in his case none of the normal
conditions of a man's life could be fulfilled--no wife, no child,
friendship with women perpetually open, as I know Berwick's more than
once has been, to misconstruction."
"And yet other men--?" Barbara looked at him deprecatingly, "You
yourself, Mr. O'Flaherty"--then she cried, "Forgive me! I have no right
to say that to you!"
"Nay," he said, "I give you for the moment every right to say, to ask,
what you like! I have no wife, no child, no home, Mrs. Rebell, because
the woman I loved rejected me; and also because, though I have tried to
like other women, I have failed. You see, it was not that I had made a
mistake, such as men make every day, for she loved me too--that makes
all the difference. She was in a different position to my own; I was
very poor, and there was the further bar of my religion, even of my
nationality"--he spoke with a certain difficulty. "At the time she acted
as she thought best for both our sakes. But, whatever my personal
experiences or motives for remaining unmarried may be, I have no
doubt,--no doubt at all,--as to the general question. To my mind, James
Berwick's friends must regret that he has never, apparently, been
tempted to make the great sacrifice; and for my part, I hope the day
will come when he will meet with a woman for whom he will think his
fortune well lost, whom he will long to make his wife in a sense that
the poor creature he married never was, and in whom he will see the
future mother of his children." He paused, then added in a low voice,
"In no other tie can such a man as he find permanent solace and
satisfaction. If report speaks truly, he has more than once tried an
alternative experiment."
He dared not look at her. They walked on in absolute silence.
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