Great Britain -- History -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
But Captain Protheroe knew the country well, he led them unerringly
through meadows and along lonely and deserted bye-lanes, never pausing
to doubt his path.
They were, in truth, an ill-assorted party, these three, so strangely
thrown together by Fortune, to tramp the night through. For the two men
were divided by every difference of life, rank, opinion, and character;
they were followers of different leaders, supporters of widely opposed
causes, and but two months before they had been adversaries in one of
the bloodiest battles of their time. And to this was yet added that
fatal gulf twixt man and man, which even a lifelong friendship can
scarce hope to bridge across—love for the same woman.
By all tokens they should have hated each other, and assuredly they did.
And Barbara? She had in hand a task which called for all the gentleness
and tact of her nature. For with her lay the task of keeping these two
at least in outward friendship, seeing from the one she could not, from
the other she would not part. And yet, with neither, was her heart at
ease. She could not rebuff Ralph, lest he in despair be again driven to
desperate ends; moreover, the affection of a lifelong friendship, the
gratitude for a constant love, above all, the loneliness of her
position, forbade her be ungracious to one who loved so well. Yet even
while she showed him kindness, her heart reproached her, knowing she was
but leading him to hope for more. For ’tis ever so with women, their
tenderness towards all misery leading them to be kind when they should
be cruel, far more often than cruel when they should be kind.
’Twixt Captain Protheroe and herself, checking the free flow of her
spirit, lay the ever-widening barrier of her pride. For when she
discerned the tenderness in his voice, or worship in his eyes, while her
heart leaped towards him in the sweet simplicity of her love, her pride
cried to her to beware, telling her that it was nought but pity for her
weakness. The words of Ralph had done their part, bringing, like the
words of the serpent, evil to the breast of Eve. For an it were in
truth so unseemly, this wandering with him alone which before had seemed
to her so sweet, so natural, what then would men say of that embrace in
the prison, given, indeed, in all simplicity, yet given unsought? Nay,
but what mattered it what men said? what would he think? Would he think
her light o’ love? Her heart burned at the thought. So she mused ever,
growing morbid in her weariness, with the strain of those last fearful
days. So she mused, scorning him in a fierce defiance lest perchance he
deem her simple, shrinking from him in a fierce shame, lest he deem her
unashamed.
Thus her troubled thoughts strove within her brain, but to all outward
seeming she was as before, gay, gracious, natural as a child.
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