Country life -- Fiction; Pastoral fiction; Piedmont (U.S. : Region) -- Fiction; Virginia -- Fiction
"I swear I never meant to do it, Dorinda," he repeated more vehemently,
encouraged by her silence. "You won't give me up, will you?"
Thoughts wheeled like a flight of bats in her mind, swift, vague, dark,
revolving in circles. They were pressing upon her from every side, but
she could distinguish nothing clearly in the thick palpitating darkness.
Impressions skimmed so swiftly over her consciousness that they left no
visible outline. Before she was aware of them they had wheeled away from
her into ultimate chaos. Bats, nothing more. And outside, against the
lighted door of the barn, other bats were revolving.
While she stood there without thinking, her perceptions of external
objects became acutely alive. She saw Jason's face, chalk-white in the
moonlight; she saw the jerking of his muscles while he talked; she saw
his arm waving with a theatrical gesture, like the arm of an evangelist.
_Drip, drip_, like water from the eaves, she heard the fall of his words,
though the syllables were as meaningless as the rain or the wind.
She had not spoken since he approached her; and she realized, standing
there in the mud, that she was silent because she could find no words to
utter. There was no vehicle strong enough to endure the storm of pain
and bitterness in her mind. Dumbness had seized her, and though she
struggled to pour out all that she suffered, when she opened her lips to
speak, she could make no audible sound. No, there was nothing that she
could say, there was nothing that she could do.
"You won't give me up, will you, Dorinda?" he pleaded.
Turning away, she started back again as rapidly as she had come. Though
he called after her in a whisper, though he followed her as far as the
end of the yard, she did not slacken her pace or look back at him.
Swiftly and steadily, like a woman walking in her sleep, she went down
the narrow sandy road to the creek and over the bridge of logs. There
was a stern beauty in her face and in her tall, straight figure, which
passed, swiftly and unearthly as a phantom, through the moonlight. An
impulse was driving her again, but it was the impulse to escape from his
presence. She was flying now from the vision she had seen of his naked
soul.
She walked in the moonlight without seeing it; past the frogs in the
bulrushes without hearing them; through the moist woods without smelling
them. Time had stood still for her, space had vanished; there was no
beginning and no end to this solitary aching nerve of experience. She
was aware of nothing outside herself until she entered the house and saw
her mother's chamber, with the open Bible and the big blue fly, which
still buzzed against the ceiling.
"We're waiting prayers for you, Dorinda. Ain't you coming?"
"No, I'm not coming. I've got a headache."
"Why did you go out again?"
"I thought I heard a coon or something in the henhouse."
"It might make your head better to hear a chapter of the Bible."
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