Country life -- Fiction; Pastoral fiction; Piedmont (U.S. : Region) -- Fiction; Virginia -- Fiction
While she spoke a vision glimmered between the windy dusk in the Park
and the orange light of the afterglow. She saw it with an intensity, an
eagerness that was breathless;--the fields, the roads, the white gate,
the long low house, the lamp shining in the front window. For the first
time she could think of Old Farm without invoking the image of Jason.
For the first time since she had left home, she felt that earlier and
deeper associations were reaching out to her, that they were groping
after her, like the tendrils of vines, through the darkness and violence
of her later memories. Earlier and deeper associations, rooted there in
the earth, were drawing her back across time and space and
forgetfulness. Passion stirred again in her heart; but it was passion
transfigured, recoiling from the personal to the impersonal object. It
seemed to her, walking there in the blue twilight, that the music had
released some imprisoned force in the depths of her being, and that this
force was spreading out over the world, that it was growing wider and
thinner until it covered all the desolate country at Old Farm. With a
shock of joy, she realized that she was no longer benumbed, that she had
come to life again. She had come to life again, but how differently!
"I feel as if the farm were calling to me to come back and help it," she
said.
That night she dreamed of Pedlar's Mill. She dreamed that she was
ploughing one of the abandoned fields, where the ghostly scent of the
life-everlasting reminded her of the smell of her mother's flowered
bandbox when she took it out of the closet on Sunday mornings--the aroma
of countless dead and forgotten Sabbaths. Dan and Beersheba were
harnessed to the plough, and when they had finished one furrow, they
turned and looked back at her before they began another. "You'll never
get this done if you plough a hundred years," they said, "because there
is nothing here but thistles, and you can't plough thistles under." Then
she looked round her and saw that they were right. As far as she could
see, on every side, the field was filled with prickly purple thistles,
and every thistle was wearing the face of Jason. A million thistles, and
every thistle looked up at her with the eyes of Jason! She turned the
plough where they grew thickest, trampling them down, uprooting them,
ploughing them under with all her strength; but always when they went
into the soil, they cropped up again. Millions of purple flaunting
heads! Millions of faces! They sprang up everywhere; in the deep furrow
that the plough had cut; in the dun-coloured clods of the upturned
earth; under the feet of the horses; under her own feet, springing back,
as if they were set on wire stems, as soon as she had crushed them into
the ground. "I am going to plough them under, if it kills me," she said
aloud; and then she awoke. A chill wind was blowing the white curtains
at the window. Was it only her imagination, or did the wind, blowing
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