Barren Honour: A NovelLawrence, George A. (George Alfred)
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Barren Honour: A Novel
Lawrence, George A. (George Alfred)
Fiction
Do you suppose that, because Miss Vavasour did perhaps more than justice
to the charms of the woman she had lately learned to hate, she was
unconscious of her own, or modestly disposed to undervalue them? It was
not so. Helen was perfectly aware that she herself was rarely lovely and
unusually fascinating. If she had been cool enough to reason
dispassionately, she would probably have acknowledged that the
comparison might safely be defied. Both flowers were passing fair; but
on the one lingered still the dewy bloom and scented freshness of the
morning; the other, though delicate in hue and full of fragrance still,
bore tokens on her petals, crisped here and there and slightly faded, of
storm-showers and a fiery noon; nor, at her best could she ever have
matched her rival in brilliancy of beauty.
But, supposing that Miss Vavasour had over-estimated herself and
under-estimated her enemy to such a point as to imagine any comparison
absurd, do you imagine it would have lightened one whit her trouble, or
softened her bitterness of heart? I think not.
Feminine jealousy is not to be judged by the standard of ordinary
ethics; you must measure it by the "Lesbian rule," if at all, and will
probably, even so, be wrong in your result. Not only is the field more
vast, its phases more varied, but it differs surely in many essentials
from the same passion in our sex. Don't be alarmed; I have no intention
of writing an essay on so tremendous a subject. The pen of Libyan steel,
that the old chroniclers talk about, would be worn down before it was
exhausted. Take one distinction as an example. I suppose it is because
we have more of conceit, pure and simple; but when we once thoroughly
establish the fact, that the man preferred before us is really and truly
our inferior in every way, it helps materially to soften the
disappointment. Comfortable self-complacency disposes us to be
charitable, compassionate, and forgiving; we try (not unsuccessfully) to
think, that the bad taste displayed by the Object is rather her
misfortune than her fault; nor do we nourish enduring malice even to him
who bears away the bride. Remember the story of Sir Gawaine. When the
huge black-browed carle would have reft from him his dame by force, he
bound himself to do battle to the death; but when the lady had once made
her choice, the Knight of the Golden Tongue thought no more of strife,
but rode on his way, resigned if not rejoicing. With our sisters it is
not so. Let a woman realize ever so completely the inferiority of her
rival,--moral, physical, and social--it will not remove one of her
suspicious fears, nor dull the sting of discomfiture when it comes, nor
teach forgetfulness of the bitter injury in after days.
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