Barren Honour: A NovelLawrence, George A. (George Alfred)
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Barren Honour: A Novel
Lawrence, George A. (George Alfred)
Fiction
One of our characters need trouble us no more. The summer passed, and
autumn came on quickly; but Bernard Haldane never saw the leaves change.
Life had been flickering within him, fitfully, for some time past; it
went out suddenly at last: the mortal sickness did not endure through
forty-eight hours. He betrayed no fear or impatience when he heard that
his end was approaching rapidly; only muttering under his breath--"There
is time enough for all I have to do." He paid no sort of attention to
the remonstrances of the physician, but caused himself to be carried at
once into his library where he remained locked in for nearly two hours,
with a servant whom he could trust thoroughly. Paper after paper was
examined and burned--a packet of yellow faded letters, first of all; and
Mr. Haldane retained throughout a perfect intelligence and
self-possession. He leant back in his chair when all was done, and
closed his eyes with a sigh of satisfaction, but roused himself from the
stupor that was creeping over him, to write, with great difficulty, a
few lines to Alan Wyverne; the signature was scarcely legible, and as he
was trying to direct the envelope, his head fell forward heavily on the
table. When they got him back to his room, he was almost too weak to
speak, though he rallied somewhat after taking strong restoratives.
The rector of the parish--a meek, single-minded, conscientious
man--thought it his duty to offer what comfort and succour he could,
though he feared the case was nearly desperate. What doubts, and
misgivings, and repinings entered into the system of Bernard Haldane's
dark cynical philosophy, God only can tell; he never tried to make a
proselyte. As regards any communion with the Church, or outward
observance of her ceremonies, he might have been the veriest of
infidels; but he had never shown himself her overt antagonist. He
listened now to all that the priest had to say, quite patiently and
courteously, but with an indifference painfully evident. When asked "if
he repented?" he answered, "Yes, of many things." Then came the
question, "Are you in peace and charity with all the world?" No word of
reply passed the firm white lips, but they curled with a terribly bitter
smile; and the skeleton hand that lay on the coverlet was clenched, as
though the long filbert-nails would pierce its palm.
The good rector felt utterly disheartened; he had not nerve enough to
cope with that intractable penitent; it would have been a sinful mockery
to speak of Sacrament, then; so he did the best he could--praying long
and fervently, even against hope, for the troubled soul that was so near
its rest. The sick man lay quite still, watching the movements of the
priest, at first with mere curiosity, soon with a growing interest; at
last it seemed as if his eyes would fain have thanked the kindly
intercessor; but they waxed dimmer every moment, till the heavy lids
closed slowly and wearily, not to be lifted again.
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