“And for this purpose a little tract has been composed, entitled 'A
Word to the Worldling.' This, with your permission, I will place in your
hands. You will there find at more length than I could bestow--But I
fear I impose upon this lady's patience?”
“It has left me long since, madam,” said Miss Dinah, as she actually
gasped for breath.
In the grim half-smile of the old nun might be seen the triumphant
consciousness that placed her above the “mundane;” but she did not
resent the speech, simply saying that, as it was the hour of recreation,
perhaps she would like to see her young ward in the garden with her
companions.
“By all means. We thank you heartily for the offer,” cried Barrington,
rising hastily.
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With another smile, still more meaningly a reproof, Sister Lydia
reminded him that the profane foot of a man had never transgressed the
sacred precincts of the convent garden, and that he must remain where he
was.
“For Heaven's sake! Dinah, don't keep me a prisoner here a moment
longer than you can help it,” cried he, “or I'll not answer for my good
behavior.”
As Barrington paced up and down the room with impatient steps, he could
not escape the self-accusation that all his present anxiety was scarcely
compatible with the long, long years of neglect and oblivion he had
suffered to glide over.
The years in which he had never heard of Josephine--never asked for
her--was a charge there was no rebutting. Of course he could fall back
upon all that special pleading ingenuity and self-love will supply about
his own misfortunes, the crushing embarrassments that befell him, and
such like. But it was no use, it was desertion, call it how he would;
and poor as he was he had never been without a roof to shelter her, and
if it had not been for false pride he would have offered her that refuge
long ago. He was actually startled as he thought over all this. Your
generous people, who forgive injuries with little effort, who bear no
malice nor cherish any resentment, would be angels--downright angels--if
we did not find that they are just as indulgent, just as merciful to
themselves as to the world at large. They become perfect adepts in
apologies, and with one cast of the net draw in a whole shoal of
attenuating circumstances. To be sure, there will now and then break
in upon them a startling suspicion that all is not right, and that
conscience has been “cooking” the account; and when such a moment does
come, it is a very painful one.
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