No, no; once and for all, once and for ever, she would _not_ do it.
Cruel as was her strait, heavy as was her burden, not one feather’s
weight of it should he carry, if by any means in her poor power she
could hold it from his back. She would not even tell him of what had
happened—at any rate, not now. It would distress him; he might take
some desperate step; it was almost certain that he would do so. Her
answer must be very short.
She was quite close to Coed now, and the water lay calm as a pond. So
calm was it that she drew the sheet of paper and the envelope from her
pocket, and leaning forward, rested them on the arched covering of the
canoe, and pencilled those words which we have already read.
“No, dear Geoffrey. Things must take their course.—B.”
Thus she wrote. Then she paddled to the shore. A fisherman standing on
the beach caught her canoe and pulled it up. Leaving it in his charge,
she went into the quaint little town, directed and posted her letter,
and bought some wool. It was an excuse for having been there should any
one ask questions. After that she returned to her canoe. The fisherman
was standing by it. She offered him sixpence for his trouble, but he
would not take it.
“No, miss,” he said, “thanking you kindly—but we don’t often get a peep
at such sweet looks. It’s worth sixpence to see you, it is. But, miss,
if I may make so bold as to say so, it isn’t safe for you to cruise
about in that craft, any ways not alone.”
Beatrice thanked him and blushed a little. Vaguely it occurred to her
that she must have more than a common share of beauty, when a rough man
could be so impressed with it. That was what men loved women for, their
beauty, as Owen Davies loved and desired her for this same cause and
this only.
Perhaps it was the same with Geoffrey—no, she did not believe it. He
loved her for other things besides her looks. Only if she had not been
beautiful, perhaps he would not have begun to love her, so she was
thankful for her eyes and hair, and form.
Could folly and infatuation go further? This woman in the darkest hour
of her bottomless and unhorizoned despair, with conscience gnawing at
her heart, with present misery pressing on her breast, and shame to
come hanging over her like a thunder cloud, could yet feel thankful
that she had won this barren love, the spring of all her woe. Or was
her folly deep wisdom in disguise?—is there something divine in a
passion that can so override and defy the worst agonies of life?
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