They said that it was sin. Yes, it might be sin to act thus for oneself
alone. But to do it for another—how of that! Was not the Saviour whom
they preached a Man of Sacrifice? Would it be a sin in her to die for
Geoffrey, to sacrifice herself that Geoffrey might go free?
Oh, it would be no great merit. Her life was not so easy that she
should fear this pure embrace. It would be better, far better, than to
marry Owen Davies, than to desecrate their love and teach Geoffrey to
despise her. And how else could she ward this trouble from him except
by her death, or by a marriage that in her eyes was more dreadful than
any death?
She could not do it yet. She could not die until she had once more seen
his face, even though he did not see hers. No, not to-night would she
seek this swift solution. She had words to say—or words to write—before
the end. Already they rushed in upon her mind!
But if no better plan presented itself she would do it, she was sure
that she would. It was a sin—well, let it be a sin; what did she care
if she sinned for Geoffrey? He would not think the worse of her for it.
And she had hope, yes, Geoffrey had taught her to hope. If there was a
Hell, why it was here. And yet not all a Hell, for in it she had found
her love!
It grew dark; she could hear the whisper of the waves upon Bryngelly
beach. It grew dark; the night was closing round. She paddled to within
a few fathoms of the shore, and called in her clear voice.
“Ay, ay, miss,” answered old Edward from the beach. “Come in on the
next wave.”
She came in accordingly and her canoe was caught and dragged high and
dry.
“What, Miss Beatrice,” said the old man shaking his head and grumbling,
“at it again! Out all alone in that thing,” and he gave the canoe a
contemptuous kick, “and in the dark, too. You want a husband to look
after you, you do. You’ll never rest till you’re drowned.”
“No, Edward,” she answered with a little laugh. “I don’t suppose that I
shall. There is no peace for the wicked above seas, you know. Now do
not scold. The canoe is as safe as church in this weather and in the
bay.”
“Oh, yes, it’s safe enough in the calm and the bay,” he answered, “but
supposing it should come on to blow and supposing you should drift
beyond the shelter of Rumball Point there, and get the rollers down on
you—why you would be drowned in five minutes. It’s wicked, miss, that’s
what it is.”
Beatrice laughed again and went.
“She’s a funny one she is,” said the old man scratching his head as he
looked after her, “of all the woman folk as ever I knowed she is the
rummest. I sometimes thinks she wants to get drowned. Dash me if I
haven’t half a mind to stave a hole in the bottom of that there damned
canoe, and finish it.”
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