England -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Farms -- Fiction; Older men -- Fiction
It seemed as if the farther he went away from Marget’s the closer it
followed up. Just at first he had seemed to leave it right behind,
and yet in the heart of the dream it was waiting on the step. The one
door of the viaduct that he had seen still wide had not succeeded in
closing, after all. That meant that, when he went to bed, he would
not be safe, because Marget might come and peer at him as he slept.
The thing that might have swamped her and shut her out had not so
much as begun to come to pass. He could not conjure her out of the
house, because magic had failed him as he stepped inside. If there
was anything there that belonged to himself, it had done nothing
for him yet but make him sad. Yet he couldn’t help feeling that the
joy was only slightly out of reach; as if he looked at it through a
window, but could not come inside. His heart was heavy, as heavy as
wet grass. Nothing, he told himself, was going right. Even the chair
he sat in wasn’t right.
“I doubt I mun be getting old bones,” he said at last. “Chair don’t
seem to fit me same as it used.”
Thomas had been busy with a contented little whistled tune, but he
broke it off in the middle when his father spoke. “’Tisn’t the old
chair, dad,” he said, a little abashed. “Yon went wi’ the rest o’ the
furniture at the sale.”
Kit stared at him a moment with a puzzled frown, and then, as if
still at a loss, he dropped his gaze to the chair. Thomas saw that
he was thinking hard as he ran his hands repeatedly over the arms.
While he was at Marget’s he had remembered many sales, but apparently
he had never remembered his own. In those crowds of his he had seen
many a chair sold, but his own had never come to the hammer under
his eyes. How could it do anything of the sort when it had stayed
safely in the dream, waiting in the house until he should come back?
Yet it had vanished, after all, when the dream had come about, and
there was only this false pretender in its place. When he stopped
rubbing the arms he peered at the legs, and twisted round to stare at
the leather back. It was a shop-chair, that was plain, varnished and
hard-stuffed, unyielding as old bread. It almost seemed to reject
him as he sat, refusing the purpose for which it had been made. It
was handsome enough to look at, of its kind, making a great show
with leather and brass nails, but as yet it was only an effigy of a
chair. No ghost as yet had clung to its hard seat, those stubborn
ghosts which hammers couldn’t eject. No shadowy arms would steal and
clasp him round as he sighed himself asleep on a twilit afternoon.
It was a mindless chair, a chair without a soul, the price of which
was the sacrifice of death. Generations must use it before it grew a
soul; lover sitting on lover’s knee, children clambering about its
legs. Dreams of the winter dusk would have to shut it round; the
sick, the dying, console themselves in its arms. There was a long
education before the new arm-chair, and he himself was the sacrifice
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