England -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Farms -- Fiction; Older men -- Fiction
“Couldn’t you bide just the one night?” Agnes coaxed. She came across
to him and laid a hand on his arm. “You’ll feel a deal better in
t’morn, I’m sure, and it’s real comfortable upstairs.”
“I’m feared to gang upstairs....” He shrank away from her, letting
her hand drop. His eyes hated her—hostile, terrible eyes. He returned
to the door. “Now, lad, get by.”
“Nay.”
He let himself go then, and became all fear and rage, a wild old
creature fighting and raving to be free. “I’ll not bide—I waint!” he
cried, his voice rising and cracking as it rose. “I can’t bide. I mun
seek they things as is gone an’ lost!” He clubbed the fiddle and came
at his son with it raised in the air. “Mun I crack fiddle over thy
danged head?”
“Let him be, the poor old man!” Agnes cried, weeping aloud, but
Thomas’s attitude had already changed. The futile act of defiance had
shown him plainly the nature of his father’s need. He must be out of
himself to risk his precious fiddle like that! He felt ashamed of
himself, too, for bringing that evil into his kindly face. He moved
away from the door, his expression softened, almost shocked. “Don’t
take on,” he said gently. “You shall gang if you want.”
“I can gang to Marget?” Kit demanded, hard of faith.
“Ay, if you’re that set.”
“We’d best be off, then, or we’ll be missing Bob.” He was still
shaking a little in every limb, but now it was with excitement and
relief. Close to the door, “Where’s t’bundle?” he asked, wheeling
round in a sudden scare. Marget would give it him, he knew, if he
left the bundle behind. When he had left Marget’s he had seemed
half-dazed, hypnotised, as it were, into going against his will. Now
he was all bustle and business, thinking for himself, straining every
nerve to get away....
“Here’s t’bundle.” Thomas took the red handkerchief from his wife.
“You’ve gone and hid my hat!” Again his voice rose.
“Nay, it’s here.”
The sun was leaving the kitchen at long last, but it was still
smoothly golden on the sands. In garden and orchard the shadows were
growing long, and the yew had a passing brother on the ground. Out
at sea there was a new life stirring, a new tide coming out of the
deep, but where Agnes stood in the kitchen a vapoury shadow grew,
pointing and reaching and deepening towards the stair.... Suddenly
she ran to the old man and caught him round the neck.
“Eh, if you would nobbut try!” she said, with tears. “I can’t abide
to think o’ you going back to yon hard woman and poor house!”
He waited patiently while she held him, but his eyes moved on. “It’s
never a poor house,” he said, “where folks find their dreams....
Good-bye, my lass,” he added, kindly enough, and hurried out, and did
not stumble as he crossed the door. Thomas had to lengthen his stride
to catch him on the path.
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