England -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Farms -- Fiction; Older men -- Fiction
Christopher Sill sat in the kitchen at Marget’s, waiting to be taken
away. He was a tall old man, with broad shoulders that were now bent,
blue, inward-looking eyes and quiet ways. In spite of his size he
gave an impression of lightness which was partly the frailty of age
and partly the spirit within, but he was too big for the kitchen,
which was smaller than even his wash-house had been at home. No
matter how he compressed himself, or shrank into corners and held
his breath, he seemed perpetually in the way. His feet, too, which
had been his innocent pride, once so light in the dance, and still
quite neat in spite of their clumsy boots, were, so it seemed, the
largest in the world. Either Marget or the children were for ever
catching them as they passed, and in addition to kicks from other
clumsy boots, he had to bear the onus of every mishap. Apparently his
feet were responsible for every broken pot, for a spilt pan, for the
children’s torn clothes, for the unsteady baby’s every fresh bruise.
Tumbling over Gran’pa was the accepted cause of each new piece of
damage and any sudden, ear-piercing howl. There had been room for
every man’s feet in the house from which he had come, and full room
for a man’s stride on the long levels of the marsh. He had never
realised his actual bodily size before.
Nor had he been conscious that human beings might press too close.
He had never troubled about the crowded rooms in which he had had
to play, the whirling dancers and the thick, lamp-poisoned air.
But he had come to them with his lungs full of the breath of the
marsh, and had gone out of them to the same clean draught. And he
had never minded the press below his platform or around his chair,
or the women’s dresses brushing against his knees. Between himself
and the crowd there had often been the bond of a friendly liking as
well as the tie of a pleasure equally shared. He was depressed by a
scanty gathering, and much preferred a real crush, even though in the
stamping and shuffling his music was apt to be drowned. The things
that the fiddle were saying reached every one of them all the same,
even those who were too far from him to hear. The more happy folks
there were, the more happiness there was in the room, and so it could
never be too full. He had never stifled through the long night hours
as here in Marget’s kitchen he stifled in the day. He and his fiddle
were never alone in there, could never get themselves really out of
sight. The children were always about him, shrill and curious and
infinitely cross, and when Marget came into the kitchen there was
simply no room for anyone else at all. She seemed to be sharply and
aimlessly all over it at once, just as an ill-tempered wind seems to
blow from every quarter at the same time. He shrank if she touched
him or came too near, and her draggled gowns worried him as they
passed.
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