England -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Farms -- Fiction; Older men -- Fiction
He was sitting as usual on his bed, holding between his hands the
thing that wasn’t there, when down in the kitchen he suddenly heard
its voice. He hardly knew it at first—it was so raucous and strange,
a voice that wept and screamed, and tried to keep silence but was
forced to speak, and was like to destroy itself with its own rage;
yet in all its wrath and pain it was still the voice he loved. He
tried to get up to go to its help, but even the beginning of the
miracle held him chained. He could only sit still and tremble ... and
wonder and wait....
The children were all together downstairs, and one of them had the
fiddle under his chin, while the red-haired baby, in its trailing
skirt, mopped and mowed in the forgotten game. Some of the magic had
come back, in spite of the fiddle’s terrible voice. They laughed
and clapped as they had done in the street, and the baby’s face was
exalted and set. Even the fiddler had a shadow of Kit’s dignity and
poise. There was an air of innocent joy strange in the dingy room,
a faint recalling of beauty once perceived. Marget, coming in on
the little scene, found herself outside it and shut off. There was
no part for her in the play they had learned from the daft old man,
who knew no better than to go fiddling in the street. All her fierce
jealousy was aroused by this faithfulness to his little moment’s
power. It seemed to her, watching, that he stood between the children
and herself, teaching them something she couldn’t learn, and taking
them where she could not go. For every mother there is a Piper
drawing her child away, as even Marget was coming to understand.
Perhaps she had seen his reflection in the red-haired baby’s face,
and suddenly saw it again now. In any case, she brought the show to
an end, clouting both player and dancer over the head, and making
away with the fiddle up the stair. Through this enveloping cloud Kit
heard the door burst open at his back, and saw a shining thing flung
quivering on the bed. He did not move until she had banged out once
more, and then after a long while he turned and put out a hand ...
found shape and touch just as they had been, and a sweet answer from
every string....
There flashed back on him at once all his vision and his peace. The
tree stood up again in the midst of wonderland, and on either side of
it the world was wide. His link with its golden solitude was renewed,
so that it was his to wander in when he would. And after a while,
when the first relief was past, his mind went off down the road that
led to the sea.
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