England -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Farms -- Fiction; Older men -- Fiction
He might have steadied his nerves by dozing in his chair, but the
children, as usual, kept him from doing that. All the time they were
darting in and out to look for the trap, or peering at him round the
doors. All about the dark cottage he could see their eyes, excited,
curious, mocking and bold. He could hear them speaking of him in
rough whispers that always reached him as jeers. For once he wished
them busy at their quarrelsome games, but they were much too intent
to take themselves out of the way. The dramatic element in Gran’pa
held them to the last—the thing that hinted tragedy and scenes.
Even the act of driving away would mean more with Gran’pa than with
anybody else. They felt instinctively that this was one of the
climaxes of life, and responded eagerly to its thrill. Gran’pa’s
bundle in its red handkerchief was also a source of thrill, a sort
of monster pudding in its cloth. Now and then one of the children
emerged and gave the bundle a sly but searching poke. If Gran’pa
hadn’t been there, they would have had it open at once, and there
was always the chance that he might leave it behind. So they stayed,
impatient and fidgety but firm, wearing the old man’s strength with
whisper and stare. There was more to be got out of this than any
casual play. Besides, Marget’s concluding scene was still to make.
Now he had that first terrible feeling of being suffocated and hemmed
in. He couldn’t even find a place to rest his eyes, because of the
pointing fingers bristling on all sides. There seemed to be faces
everywhere as well, and even when he turned to the street one peered
at him over the sill. He would have got up and gone outside, but he
knew they were there to watch him and would cry him down. Panting, he
fixed his hunted gaze on the stair, seeing it in the dark room as a
mysterious ladder climbing into peace. It rested him just to look at
it and picture where it led. Up above, safe from all the eyes, was a
hiding-place for the hunted, shrinking old. The desire to be there
grew upon him as he looked, so that he was drawn irresistibly to his
feet. Once up the narrow stair, he would be free of the effort that
lay ahead, and the minds that had fastened on his like preying teeth.
Now he ached to be there, burned to be there.... Something with wings
would stand outside the door.... He straightened himself, nerving
himself to move, and then he saw Marget coming down the stairs.
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