It was he, and such as he, that
deluged France with blood. The measure of their iniquity ran over. But
the Bourbons were ever an accursed race. The property of the mother
was seized upon by the emissaries of the police; and when a few years
afterwards, she was released from her imprisonment, it was to find
herself a homeless outcast, and her daughter,--the beauteous child
of her soul's affections,--the inmate of a madhouse. Kings should be
the protectors, the benefactors of their subjects; not their bane,
their curse, the agents of their torture. Monsieur, that woman was my
relative, and early did she stamp upon my young heart that hatred to
royalty which remains unconquerably the same to this very hour. Yes,
here it is," and he pressed his hand with energetic firmness over the
seat of life; "here,--here it is, and, like a memorial carved on the
bark of a sapling, it has become enlarged with my growth, and deeper
indented with my years. It is my fate, monsieur,--it is my fate.
"The days of my boyhood passed on in mental misery. I felt for the
injuries that had been heaped upon my only friend; I yielded to her
instructions to be prepared against the hour of vengeance, when
retributive justice should sweep tyranny from the throne; I nursed the
hope in the secret recesses of my breast; I cherished it in my heart's
core; it was the subject of my nightly dreams and waking thoughts; and,
whilst other lads sought amusement in boyish pastimes, the demon of
revenge led me into solitary nooks, where I hoarded up my ardent desire
to redress the wrongs of Madame T----. Such, monsieur, was Jacques
Begaud in his thirteenth year, when, tired of a vegetative life, I
quitted my uncle's house, which, though it had been a place of shelter,
had never been a home to me, and travelled on foot to Toulon. My small
stock of money was soon expended; but yet I wanted for nothing. A piece
of bread and a little fruit, with some wine, no one denied me; and,
monsieur, I felt the sweets of liberty. Why I went to Toulon I do not
know, for Paris was my aim; and Madame T---- had prophesied,--there was
something terrible in her denunciations,--she had prophesied desolation
and destruction to the house of the Bourbons; and as rumours were
spreading of disunion at court, so did she eagerly feed upon them,
and urge me to redress her wrongs. It is true the debauchee was in
his grave; but then there was his grandson, the celebration of whose
marriage had made me an orphan even before my birth; and, boy as I was,
with a mind care-worn and cankered, I even looked upon _that_ event as
a legitimate cause of hatred."
"But the star, the star!" exclaimed Lord Eustace; "I am anxious to
learn in what manner you considered yourself influenced by the star."
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