And he had quite imbued Bessy with the wish for change. She only
thought as he thought. Never suspecting the true reason of his wish to
get away and establish himself elsewhere, she only saw how real it
was. Of this they talked, night after night, pacing the garden paths.
"There seems to have been a spell of ill-luck attending me ever since
I settled in this place," he would say to her; "and I know it won't be
lifted whilst I stop here." He was saying it this very night.
"I hate the place, Bessy," he observed, looking up at the bright
evening star that began to show itself in the clear blue sky. "But for
my mother and you I should never have stayed in it. I wish I had the
money to buy a practice elsewhere. As it is, I must establish one."
"Yes," acquiesced Bessy. "But where? The great thing is--what other
place to decide upon."
Of course that was the chief thing. Dr. Rane looked down and kept
silence, pondering various matters in his mind. He thought it had
better be London. A friend of his, one Dr. Jones, who had been a
fellow-student in their hospital days, was doing a large practice as a
medical man in the neighbourhood of New York: he wanted assistance,
and had proposed to Dr. Rane to go over and join him. Nothing in the
world would Dr. Rane have liked better; and Bessy was willing to go
where he went, even to quit her native land for good; but Dr. Jones
did not offer this without an equivalent, and the terms he named, five
hundred pounds, were quite beyond the reach of Oliver Rane. So he
supposed it must be London. With the two hundred pounds that he hoped
to get for the goodwill of his own practice in Dallory Ham--at this
very moment he was trying to negociate with a gentleman for it in
private---he should set up in London, or else purchase a small share
in an established practice. Anything, anywhere, to get away, and to
leave the nightmare of daily-dreaded discovery behind him!
"Once we are away from this place, Bessy, we shall get on. I feel sure
of it. You won't long have to live like a hermit, from dread of the
cost of entertaining company, or to look at every sixpence before you
lay it out."
"I don't mind it, Oliver. You know how sorry I should be if you
thought of giving up our home here for my sake."
"But I don't; it's for my own as well," he hastily added. "You can't
realize what it is, Bessy, for a clever medical man--and I am that--to
be beaten back for ever into obscurity; to find no field for his
talents; to watch others of this generation rising into note and
usefulness. I have not got on here! Madam has schemed to prevent it.
Why she should have patronized Alexander; why she should patronize
Seeley; not for their sakes, but to oppose me; I have never been able
to imagine. Unless it was that my mother, when Fanny Gass, and Mr.
North were intimate as brother and sister in early life."
"And madam despises the Gass family and ours equally. It was a
black-letter day for us all when papa married her."
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