Better days; or, A Millionaire of To-morrowFitch, Thomas
Philosophy
Better days; or, A Millionaire of To-morrow
Fitch, Thomas
Utopias -- Fiction; West (U.S.) -- Fiction
Then he was not dead—or, stay, he might be, for did he not say
“probably,” not “possibly”? Then, still standing before the
dressing-table, she leaned forward, and, putting her face close to the
mirror, she muttered, looking into her own deep eyes the while, “Great
God! what did I do?” For a full moment she stood thus, then, lifting the
powder-puff from the jeweled case, she mechanically swept her cheeks and
brow and sat down. Then she caught the letter and read it again, this
time more clearly and calmly, “the probable fatal termination,” and
again, “until the day after you became the Baroness Von Eulaw.”
She looked at her toilette. What was she doing bejeweled and brocaded
that night? Where were the sackcloth and ashes she had earned? She arose
and pulled the diamonds from their places, and the beautiful robe from
her lovely shoulders, and put on a gown of creamy plush, bordered with
some dark, rich fur, and, slowly tying the cords, her eyes fell upon the
picture at her feet.
She took it between her fingers as if it were a dead thing, and thought
at the moment that it weighed a pound at the least. And this was Ellen
Thornton! Then she thought how old-fashioned her dress looked, and for a
moment she felt glad that she had gotten the picture back. Another
revulsion of feeling as she looked upon the torn envelope. What would
she not suffer for the hope, the uncertainty, she had clung to when she
tore that paper half an hour ago?
If only the doctors could have said “possibly,” not “probably;” perhaps
that was what they meant, and not “probably,” she repeated. Doctors are
so clumsy—especially some—and they do so exaggerate in order to magnify
the importance of their case, and for a moment she took unction in such
logic.
Suddenly a new thought took possession. The baron—“where did he come
in?” as he himself would have expressed it, and she half smiled at the
grotesqueness of the thought. Was she not married? and did she not owe
him allegiance as a woman of honor? If she had told him all that her
soul held in keeping for another, would he have made her the Baroness
Von Eulaw?—Very likely, but she was not prepared to believe it. She had
no right to hold him responsible for offenses against her while she was
holding perfidy to her heart, and she marveled that she had failed to
make this argument a shield against the shafts of her great sorrow and
her almost greater chagrin.
She would destroy both the letter and the picture, and put away all
thought of the unhappy occurrence. But, examining the picture again, she
discovered two little punctures just through the pupils of the shadowy
eyes, and she thought and queried for the cause of such an accident.
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