Betty Alden: The first-born daughter of the PilgrimsAustin, Jane G. (Jane Goodwin)
History
Betty Alden: The first-born daughter of the Pilgrims
Austin, Jane G. (Jane Goodwin)
United States -- History -- Colonial period, ca. 1600-1775 -- Fiction
“‘There are many fair ladies at the court who kindly notice me
as Master Winslow’s associate; but, father, you know how it is
with my heart, for I fully laid it open to you before I went
away, sore hurt by what Captain Standish said to me the day you
wot of; nor have I seen the lady of my love since that day, nor
shall I, as I think, while we two abide below. And yet, sir, her
image is more present to mine eyes than are the faces of these
dames, or even your own, though there is naught so dear to me in
this world as yourself,--that is to say, if you will bear with
my fantasy, there’s naught outside of me so dear as my father;
but Lora is within, the life of my life and essence of my being,
and how should a man say his own being is dear to him, for to
what should his own being belong save to itself and the God who
gave it? Honored father, I feel that I should crave pardon of
your dignity for thus claiming its indulgence of a lover’s fond
imaginings; but, sir, you know how since my mother’s death left me
a little lonely child, your tenderness and care have filled both a
father’s and mother’s room in my life, and to-day I speak to you
as I might to her had she been alive; and as I dream of laying
my head in her lap and feeling her hand upon my hair and her
half-remembered voice in mine ears, so now I come to you and say,
I love this maid. I love her with all the power of loving God hath
given me. I love her as Jacob did Rachel, as Isaac did Rebecca,
ay, my father, as you did my mother, and life will never reach
its fullness for me except I may mingle it with her pure life.
Father, is there no hope? Is there no seven years’ or fourteen
years’ probation that may for me pass as a few days for love of
her? Will not you speak once again to the captain for me? I know
not how she feels concerning me. When I spoke to her on that fair
eve it was like arousing a child from its dreams of heaven; she
knew not what I meant, nor how far her own heart could respond to
a love whose face and voice as yet were strange to her; but with
all her tender innocence she hath a singular aptness of mind, and
a delicate discrimination that will ere now have spoken to her
heart many a homily drawn from the text I gave her in that sweet
hour. I cannot tell, I dare not think, but something within me
dares to hope that Lora loves me. Oh, how fair those words look
set down on paper, LORA LOVES ME! Nay, father, I have spent a good
half hour in staring at those three words as if they were some new
gospel of hope. Father! I dare not ask your indulgence, and yet
I know I have it, and well do you know when I thus unveil what
some men would call my weakness to your eyes, that my reverence
never was greater or more profound; but as I writ before, ’tis to
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