Families -- Fiction; Fathers and sons -- Fiction; Husband and wife -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction
“You are my property. You are bound to me. I do not intend that you
shall ever forget that, Yvonne. I don't believe you really love me, but
that is not the point. Other women have not loved their husbands, and
yet--yet they have been true and loyal to them.”
“You amaze me!” she cried, watching his eyes with acute wonder in her
own. “Suppose that I should refuse to abide by your--what shall I call
it?”
“Decision is the word,” he supplied grimly.
“Well, what then?”
“You will abide by it, that's all. I am leaving you behind without the
slightest fear for the future. This is your home. You will not abandon
it.”
“Have I said that I would?”
“No.”
She drew herself up.
“Well, I shall now tell you what I intend to do, and have intended to
do ever since I discovered that I could think for myself and not for
Matilde. I intend to stay here until you turn me out as unworthy. I love
you, James. You may leave me here feeling very sure of that. I shall go
on caring for you all the rest of my life. I am not telling you this in
the hope that you will say that you have a spark of love in your soul
for me. I don't want you to say it now, James. But you will say it to me
one day, and I will be justified in my own heart.”
“I _have_ loved you. There was never in this world anything like the
love I had for you. I know it now. It was not Matilde I loved when I
held you in my arms. I know it now. I loved _you_; I loved your body,
your soul------”
“Enough!” she cried out sharply. “I was playing at love then. Now I
love in earnest. You've never known love such as I can really give. I
know you well, too. You love nobly, and without end. Of late I have come
to believe that Matilde could have won out against your folly if she had
been stronger, less conscious of the pain she felt. If she had stood her
ground, here, against you, you would have been conquered. But she did
not have the strength to stand and fight as I would have fought. To-day
I love my sister none the less, but I no longer fight to avenge her
wrongs. I am here to fight for myself. You may go away thinking that I
am a traitor to her, but you will take with you the conviction that I am
honest, and that is the foundation for my claim against you.”
“I know you are not a traitor to her cause,” he replied. “You are its
lifelong supporter. You have done more for Matilde than------”
“Than Matilde could have done for herself? Isn't that true? I have
forced you to confess that you loved her for twenty-five years with
all your soul. I have done my duty for her. Now I am beginning to take
myself into account. Some day we will meet again and--well, it will not
be disloyalty to Matilde that moves you to say that you love me.”
He was silent for a long time. When at last he spoke his voice was full
of gentleness.
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