Families -- Fiction; Fathers and sons -- Fiction; Husband and wife -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction
He sometimes lay perfectly still after these awakenings, wondering if
Yvonne was listening at his closed door, straining his ears for the
sound of a creaking board that would betray her presence as she stole
back to her own bed.
What surprised and puzzled him most was her serenity in the face of
these involuntary revelations. She did not appear to be disturbed by the
fact that his dreams, his most secret thoughts, were of another woman.
There was nothing in her manner to indicate that she suffered any of the
pangs of jealousy, humiliation, dismay, or doubt that might reasonably
have been expected under the circumstances. She seemed to put the matter
entirely out of her mind as trivial, unimportant, unvexing. He found
himself wondering what his own state of mind would be if the conditions
were reversed and it was she who cried out in her sleep.
Frederic was alert, shifty, secretive. He knew himself to be the link in
the chain that would offer the least resistance of any if it came to the
question of endurance. He realised that the slightest tug at the chain
would cause it to snap, and that the break would never be repaired. His
stepmother for the present fortified the weak spot in the chain; but
would her strength be sufficient to support the strain that was to be
imposed upon both links in the end?
He watched her like a hawk, ever on the lookout for the slightest
signs of commendation, reproof, warning, encouragement. She alone stood
between him and what appeared to be the inevitable. The truce was a mask
that hid none of the real features of the situation. When would it be
discarded?
After that illuminating hour in her boudoir he saw himself in a far from
noble position. The situation was no longer indefinite. He had taken a
step that could not be recalled. His loyalty to Lydia had been tested,
and the sickening truth came out--he was a traitor! He knew in his soul
that he loved the girl. His conscience told him so. But his conscience
suddenly had become an elastic thing that stretched over a pretty wide
scope of emotions. These he tried to analyse and, failing to do so with
credit to himself, settled back into a state of apathy better described
as sullen self-pity. He even went so far as to blame his father for the
new blight that had been put upon him.
Of the three, Lydia alone faced the situation with courage. She was
young, she was good, she was inexperienced, but she saw what was
going on beneath the surface with a clarity of vision that would have
surprised an older and more practised person; and, seeing, was favoured
with the strength to endure pain that otherwise would have been
insupportable.
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