"But not only the curious circumstances of our meeting after your weeks
of silent devotion, but your own personality, quickened to life a
flicker of youthful romance so long moribund that I had forgotten it
had ever been one of my lost inheritances. I was also both amused and
interested, and to play a little comedy with you was irresistible. It
did not occur to me for a moment that you would fall in love with me.
"It was not until the second time you came here after the theatre that
I realized what was happening in those submerged cells of mine. But I
could not make up my mind to tell you that night--nor the next. By
that time I was frightened. I feared there could be only one result.
I suppose all women are cowards when in love. But I knew that this
could not last, and when you asked me to sit in Mrs. Oglethorpe's box I
thought the time had come to precipitate matters. After a decisive
step like that I could not retreat. But I wish to tell you myself, and
for that reason I have asked you to discuss me with no one until we
meet. It will probably be the last time I shall see you, but I am
prepared for that.
"I shall see Jane Oglethorpe today. She has been very loyal and I
think she will forgive me. It would not matter much if she did not,
and possibly would save me a good deal of boredom, but after last night
an explanation is due her.
"And after Saturday night, _mon ami_, matters will be entirely in your
hands. You will realize whether you have merely been dazzled and
fascinated or whether there is really between us that mysterious bond
that no circumstances can alter. Such things have happened to men and
women if we may believe history, but I have had too good reason to
believe that it is not for me. However--at least for a brief time you
have given me back something of the hopes and illusions of youth. This
in itself is so astonishing that whatever the result I shall never be
able to forget you.
"Until Saturday.
"M."
Clavering's immediate act was to dash off a love-letter more
impassioned than any he had ever dreamed himself capable of writing,
vowing that he was dazzled and fascinated, God knew, but that he loved
her with the love of his life and would marry her if she would have
him, no matter what her revelations. And with what patience he could
muster and with no grace whatever he would make no attempt to see her
until Saturday night. But she must believe that he loved her and she
must write at once and tell him so. He could not exist throughout that
interminable interval unless she wrote him at once that she believed in
the existence and the indissolubility of that bond, and that he had
given her the highest and deepest and most passionate love of which man
was capable, and which no woman but she could inspire, for no woman
like her had ever lived.
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