He swung about impatiently. The explanation of his mood was this
hideous interval to be got through, Heaven alone knew how. No wonder
he had felt a sensation of terror. When a man is in the unsatisfied
stages of love he must expect occasional attacks of greensickness,
sullen passions intensified by unreasoning fear. And he was luckier
than most. He had been the confidant of men in love, with hope
deferred or blasted, and although he had been sympathetic enough, and
convinced that men had a far deeper capacity for suffering than women,
still had his pity been tempered by a certain contempt. Those had been
the times when he had flouted the idea that he was basically romantic;
and that he had never made a jackass of himself over any woman had
induced a feeling of superiority that had expanded his ego. Now he was
convinced that his capacity for love put theirs to shame, and he was
filled with pride at the thought. Still--he wished it were Saturday
night.
He was crossing the room to his solitary table when he saw Jim
Oglethorpe enter. His first impulse was to avoid him. The restaurant
was well-filled and he could easily take a table in a corner with his
back to the room. But dining alone was a melancholy business at
best--and tonight! If Oglethorpe brought up Madame Zattiany's name he
could change the subject or state bluntly that he had his reasons for
not wishing to discuss her. As he stood hesitating, Oglethorpe caught
sight of him and almost ran across the room, his face, which had looked
heavy and worried, glowing with pleasure.
"Jove, this is luck!" he exclaimed. "Alone? So am I. Got in this
morning and found Janet had a dinner on for those infernally noisy
friends of hers. Got something to think over, so thought I'd come out
here. This is really luck as I was going to hunt you up tomorrow.
Let's sit here. I want to talk."
He had led the way to a table in a remote corner, secluded, so far. He
beckoned the head waiter, who agreed that it should remain secluded.
Then he asked Clavering to order the dinner, and, folding his arms,
stared out of the window, his face sagging once more. He was still a
young man, not more than forty-five, but in spite of his love of
outdoor sport he showed a more consistent love of eating and drinking
in flabby muscles and pouches under the eyes. It was an amiable,
rather weak but stubborn face that had been handsome in youth when his
eyes were bright and clear skin covered firm muscles, and it would be
handsome again when years had compelled him to diet and his already
faded hair had turned white; his features were regular and his figure
well-knit under its premature accumulations.
He produced a flask from his pocket when the waiter had discreetly
turned his back, and their ice-water might have passed for cold tea.
"Think I'll come to the point," he said. "You know me well enough not
to mind anything I say."
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