At last he thought of a plan for making himself better known to her. He
wrote a play, in which the heroine was destined for her; and as hers was
the only character in the piece which was effective, she pronounced it
the finest thing which had been written since Schiller. Franz was in
ecstasies. She read the play herself to the manager, and exerted all her
eloquence in its behalf. But the manager saw well enough her
motive,—knew that she was so delighted with the play merely because her
part was the important one, and declined to produce it. The play gained
its author’s end however. It had established him among Clara’s friends.
She began to notice his love for her, began to recognise its
seriousness. She knew how to distinguish between the real homage of a
heart, and the lip-homage which others offered her.
There is something inexpressibly charming in knowing yourself possessed
of a heart’s first love; and women—especially those who have passed the
first flush of youth—are more gratified by the love of a boy, than by
that of twenty men. A boy’s love has something in it so intense, so
absorbing, so self-forgetting! It is love, and love only, unmixed with
any thoughts of responsibilities; looking forward to no future,
reflected by no past. There is a bloom on first love. Its very
awkwardness is better than grace; its silence or imperfect stammerings
more eloquent than eloquence; there is a mute appeal in its eyes, which
is worth all the protestations in the world.
Clara, who had been accustomed to the admiration of _roués_, felt the
exquisite charm of this boy’s love. In a few weeks he became her
acknowledged lover; and excited no little envy among the _habitués_ of
the theatre, who could not for the life of them comprehend “what the
devil she could see in that bumpkin.”
But if boys love intensely, they love like tyrants, and Clara was made a
slave. Jealous of every one who approached her, he forced her to give up
all her friends; she gave way to every caprice; she began to idolise
him.
This connexion with an actress, as may easily be foreseen, led to
Franz’s adopting the profession of the stage. Clara taught him in a few
months that which ordinary actors take years to acquire; but this was
owing to his hereditary dramatic talent more than to her instruction.
His appearance on the stage, which would, he knew, profoundly hurt his
father, was not the mere theatrical ambition which possesses most young
men: it was stern necessity; it was the only profession open to him, for
he had married Clara!
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