Do not, however, suppose that the old man was aware of this feeling; he
would have shuddered at the accusation. Blinding himself with all sorts
of sophistications, he attributed his horror at Franz’s adoption of the
stage to his very sincere disgust to that profession; and because he
really did in his own person feel an actor’s life was disgraceful, even
sinful, he fancied his objection to Franz’s being an actor was wholly
derived from that feeling. But in the depths of his heart he was
horribly jealous. He had learned to hate Franz as a rival, before he
knew him to be his son. Critics had maddened him by their comparisons.
Franz had been pointed out as the actor who was to eclipse him. And now
that he found Franz was his son, instead of rejoicing in his success,
instead of feeling proud that at any rate his rival was his son, and
that the genius which dethroned him was derived from himself—instead of
the consolation which another father would have received, he was
assailed by the bitterest thoughts at the idea of his son being an
actor! He was incensed at such disobedience, at such violation of all
his wishes; and attributed to his anger all he really felt of jealousy.
There is something so painful in the idea of a father being jealous of
his son, that many will be tempted to pronounce it impossible. Rare it
fortunately is, but not impossible. Who has not known women jealous of
their daughters: women preserving their beauty, and followed by homage,
till their girls are old enough to dispute and bear away the palm from
them? If this is not uncommon—and more than one instance must occur
within every reader’s experience—what is to prevent the same principle
applying in a man’s case? You have only to imagine the vanity pampered
by flattery into an unhealthy condition, and then bring in a rival—no
matter whom—and the thing is done. Either the father’s vanity will be
caressed by the reflection of the child’s success, (and this, happily,
is the commoner case,) or it will be irritated at the child’s
interference with its claims.
In Schoenlein’s case must be added the strange but intense dislike with
which he regarded the profession of an actor. Had there been no rivalry
in the case, had Franz been only a tolerable actor, he would still have
been excessively irritated. But for his son to be an actor, and for the
public to prefer him as an actor to his father—this was agonising!
He grew eloquent in his exhortations. Finding it was in vain to make
Franz share his religious opinions, he endeavoured to dissuade him by
painting all the dangers of the profession—its pangs, its weariness, its
disappointments—painted the disagreeable ordeal he himself had been
forced to undergo; and speaking, as he thought, to accomplish his son’s
welfare, he was eloquent.
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