fact—a sort of absurd country superstition—that owing to some ancient
ancestral impiety, even when the ghost ceased to be heard of in the long
portrait-gallery at Stoke, over the great staircase—which had been
invisible to the family alone—then somewhere or other a Willoughby was
mad. Often had the colonel smiled at it, when merely a younger brother
in the army; a wound once received in his head in America, which had
cost him delirious days and nights, seemed formerly to entitle him
doubly to his smile at the corroboration, when restored to full health:
nay, from some cause, he had found himself thinking of it once or twice
in the full blaze of the streets of Paris, with their vivid
reminiscences—though his smile had been but faint, now he was the
younger brother no longer. For _why_, really, after all, had he come to
Paris in particular, or lingered there, persuading himself under so many
different forms about its convenience, the novelty to his children, the
advantage of his brother’s banker, the little legacy, the comparative
privacy, the rapid post, or the many notices of places to let? Why, in
that indirect way, had he sought to make inquiries of the police, and
caught himself listening to words in the street, of unknown suicides,
baffled investigations, and French ennui? Why had he mechanically shrunk
from the Boulevards and rushing St Honoré, yet glanced askance at
windows full of faces, or looked again with an irresistible suspicion,
to see if he recognised or was recognised by any one—not merely on that
day, but on previous ones also? Actually, in the hot, beating sun, it
had for a moment or two resembled the preface to his fever in the
colonies, after that affair with their rabble of militia, among whom he
had fancied he saw a known visage disguised; and the strong effort of
his understanding which recovered him had only brought more keenly the
sudden question—whether his brother indeed, or he himself, had been
touched with the germs of a growing madness. There had been strange
horror in the thought. For, had there really been a deliberate, sober
meaning in his brother’s stray purposes, through the confusion of all
his neglect, and though cut off by death? While the quick, clear
self-suspicion had seemed to pierce his own mind with shame, how, amidst
an uneasiness to associate with his countrymen, he was still traversing
Paris everywhere, under cover of guidance to his family, mingling
private anxieties with the grandeur of royal edifices, and continuing to
expect some chance vestige of things which his brother might have chosen
wisely to leave in silence. Since his succession to Stoke he must have
been altering insensibly. Even selfish feelings, impatient wishes,
hidden thoughts, or half-fretful expressions towards her who had been so
long his solace, had then recurred to mind with a painful surprise;
compared with which, his brother’s eccentricity appeared innocent
indeed, sadly as his earlier follies had brought it on.
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