Blackwood's Edinburgh Magazine, Volume 68, No. 421, November 1850Various
General
Blackwood's Edinburgh Magazine, Volume 68, No. 421, November 1850
Various
England -- Periodicals; Scotland -- Periodicals
"I was intensely moved. I felt--I knew that she had a message for
me. I felt that hers was the only intellect in the world to which I
would have submitted mine; and, for one moment, all the angel and
all the devil in me wrestled for the mastery. If I could but have
trusted her one moment.... No! all the pride, the suspicion, the
prejudice of years, rolled back upon me. 'An aristocrat! and she,
too, the one who has kept me from Lillian!' And in my bitterness,
not daring to speak the real thought within me, I answered with a
flippant sneer--
"'Yes, Madam! like Cordelia, so young, yet so untender!--Thanks to
the mercies of the upper classes!'
"Did she turn away in indignation? No, by heaven!--there was
nothing upon her face but the intensest yearning pity. If she had
spoken again, she would have conquered; but before those perfect
lips could open, the thought of thoughts flashed across me.
"'Tell me one thing! Is my cousin George to be married to----?' and
I stopped.
"'He is.'
"'And yet,' I said, 'you wish to turn me back from dying on a
barricade!' And, without waiting for a reply, I hurried down the
street in all the fury of despair."
But Alton Locke did not die on a barricade, any more than Mr John
O'Connell on the floor of the House of Commons. He did not sever with
his shears the thread of life either of soldier or policeman. He got
down from the waggons with the rest when Feargus showed the white
feather, and by way of change of scene and subject, contrived to get
into the house where Lillian was residing, and in a very sneaking way
to become witness of sundry love passages between her and his cousin
George. As a matter of course, he was kicked into the street by two
able-bodied servitors in plush. Then follows a scene with a former
comrade of his, a drunken, worthless, treacherous Dung, by name Jemmy
Downes, who had become a sweater and kidnapper, and descended through
every stage of degradation to the very cesspool of infamy. His wife
and children are lying dead, fever-stricken, half-consumed by vermin
in a horrible den, overhanging a rankling ditch, into which Downes in
his delirium falls, and Alton staggers home with the typhus raging in
his blood. Then come the visions of delirium, ambitiously written, but
without either myth or meaning, so far as we can discover. Sometimes
Alton fancies himself a mylodon eating his way through a forest of
cabbage palms, and "browsing upon the crisp tart foliage,"--sometimes
he is impressed with the painful conviction that he is a baboon
agitated "by wild frenzies, agonies of lust, and aimless ferocity." The
conscience, it would seem, was not utterly overpowered by the disease.
He at length awakes to reality--
"Surely I know that voice! She lifted her veil. The face was
Lillian's! No! Eleanor's!
"Gently she touched my hand--I sunk down into soft, weary, happy
sleep."
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