Bildungsromans; Blind -- Fiction; Parent and child -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
The soft sound of their murmuring at the bottom of the stairs and the
roar of Oxford Street swept him away on a flood, but he was so tired
that he seemed to sink in it to a place where the pitch was higher, the
cars and everything more shrill as they darted along so far away, it
seemed. The flowers were singing to themselves, or was it a bird? Birds
lusting in trees which suddenly were round him, their notes screaming
through the rich leaves. They were full of sap, hanging down thick
hands to cover the nakedness of the branches on which birds sat mocking
at him, for they could see and he could not. All Barwood was laughing
at him because he had gone away, and by doing that had found out how
helpless he was. He could not open the window, he could not go out.
Mamma was coming back, her footsteps rang heavily on the stairs, and as
she came in and shut the door he roused himself, saying that he was
only feverish and that it would pass with a night’s rest. She came up
to him and laid her hand on his shoulder.
“Are you all right, dear?”
“Yes, yes, quite all right.”
Why did they go on nagging him?
“Shall I shut the window? Don’t you find this noise terrible?”
“No, please leave it open so that I can listen.” She sat down and took
up some knitting. That doctor was a fool. What was the matter with the
boy? She could only sit and watch, there was nothing to be done with
him, he was in one of his moods. Their walk was out of the question now.
He passed a hand over his forehead, the skin was dry and burning,
electric. Again he felt that he was being enveloped, this time by the
close room and by the sun which throbbed outside. He was growing afraid
at the way in which the walls pressed in and crowded the flowers
together so that their scent rose up in a fog mixed with the turmoil
outside and made to overwhelm him, when suddenly and for no reason,
like a gust of wind through the room, purifying it, came the sound of
bells from the church along the street, tearing through the room, bells
catching each other up, tripping, tumbling and then starting off again
in cascades. Theirs was such a wild joy and they trembled at it between
the strokes so that they hummed, making a background for the peals. He
loved bells, and, inexpressibly happy, he was swept back to Barwood and
June--“Listen, June, how the sound of them comes over the country,” and
her father being hunted by them through the mazes that gin had created
in his brain, and their walks stretched in a gesture to the sky, they
had been so unfortunate in their lives.
Then, for no reason, the bells began to stop one by one and the humming
grew fainter, and he remembered an evening on the river when the sound
of them had glided over the water, but a lorry mumbled along beneath,
and one by one the bells stopped till even their humming had gone.
Barwood was being sold, and after all, those walks of theirs had come
to nothing.
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