Borderland : $b a country-town chronicleFothergill, Jessie
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Borderland : $b a country-town chronicle
Fothergill, Jessie
English fiction -- 19th century
When the Thorsgarth carriage had driven away, and the Balder Hall
one came up, Otho handed Magdalen in, followed her, shut the
window, and turned to her. After the bright light around the
concert-room door, they seemed suddenly to plunge into utter and
outer darkness, and Magdalen was glad of it, for she would not
have had Otho see her face now for a great deal of money,—perhaps
not even if his seeing it would have secured to her the object for
which she had toiled so long and so unsuccessfully—the position of
his wife. She did not know what he was going to say to her, but
she believed she could guess. She believed that the new line she
had lately taken towards him—to-night, and on one or two other
occasions recently—had so angered his imperious and exacting
temper that he was now going to tell her that their friendship was
at an end, unless she would submit to take a lower position with
regard to him than she had yet done. She knew—she had been so
unhappy as to have to consider the subject, in reckoning with
herself about Otho and his ‘intentions’—she knew that she had no
‘dishonourable’ proposal to fear from him. She had maintained
always a footing distinctly forbidding such possibilities; but she
dreaded and feared that he had shaken off what influence she had
had over him—that he found he could exist without the counsel and
advice for which he had often come to her, and which he professed,
had often been of service to him. She believed he was angry that
she had dared to thwart him in a whim which he considered to be
harmless, and a kind of amusing joke, and that after making the
bizarre and humiliating exhibition of himself, her, and Ada, which
he had accomplished this evening, he was now going to let her
understand that he was about to shake off her influence once and
for all. And what was it that she experienced in this idea?
Scarcely what might have been expected. Neither anger, contempt,
nor indignation, but grief, sorrow, soreness; a yearning
unwillingness to part, and a dread of the days when she should not
see him; an almost passionate speculation as to whether she could
not concede something—keep the man at her side, somehow.
Thus she was glad when the darkness hid her face. He could not see
the thrill that shot through her, as she wondered what the next half
hour was to bring forth for her, and she managed to control her
voice, and to say calmly—
‘Pray be quick. I do not know why I have granted you this favour at
all. It is far beyond your deserts.’
‘As for that, there may be two opinions. If you’d heard me out
to-night, instead of pouncing upon me as you did——’
‘Do not allude to that. It is over, and I have not repented my
refusal to you. It was quite obvious what people thought when you
appeared with that girl on your arm. Not for worlds would I have put
myself into such a position.’
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