The interview over, I expected to be put into stripes, cropped, and
sent to the workshops. But instead I was taken to one of the detention
cells, and for an interval which slowly lengthened itself into a week
was left a prey to all the devils of solitude. It seemed as if I had
been buried out of sight and forgotten. Three times a day a kitchen
"trusty" brought my meals and put them through the door wicket, but
apart from this I saw no one save the corridor guard, who never so much
as looked my way in his comings and goings.
That week of palsying, unnerving isolation got me. Consider it for a
moment. For a year I had been living at the very heart of life,
working, fighting, scheming, mixing and mingling, and succeeding--not
only in the money-winning, but also--until the Agatha Geddis incident
came along--in the field of good repute. At the last Agatha had set me
free, and Polly's love had opened the ultimate door of supreme
happiness; a joy so ecstatic that at the end of the honeymoon I was
only beginning to realize what it meant to me.
And then, on the very summit of the mountain of joy, had come the touch
of the deputy warden's hand on my shoulder in the Antlers dining-room.
That touch had swept the new-born world ruthlessly aside--all save
Polly's love and loyalty. Success had been blotted out with the loss
of liberty wherewith to profit by it; and for those who had known me in
the great gold camp and elsewhere in the West--my new friends--I was
branded as an escaped convict. For two shameful years I should be shut
away from Polly, from freedom, from participation in the fight my
partners were making to save the mine, and most probably from any
knowledge of how the fight was going, either for or against us.
Is it any matter for wonder that by the end of the solitary week I was
little better than a mad-man? If I might have had speech with the
warden, I should have prayed for work; for any employment, however hard
or menial, that would serve to stop the sapping of the very foundations
of reason. One hope I clung to, as the drowning catch at straws. I
could not doubt that Polly was near at hand. If the regular "visiting
day" should intervene they would surely admit her. But in this, too, I
was unlucky. The date of my reincarceration fell between two of the
regular visiting days. So I waited and looked and longed in vain.
I don't know how many more circlings of the clock-hands were measured
off before the break came. I lost count of the time by days and was no
longer able to think clearly. In perfect physical condition when I was
arrested, I began to go to pieces, both mentally and physically, under
the strain of suspense. Then insomnia came to add its terrors; I could
neither eat nor sleep. I had an ominous foreboding of what the total
loss of appetite meant, and kept telling myself over and over that for
Polly's sake I must fight to save my sanity.
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