The temptation to yield was both subtle and compelling. Reason, the kind
of reason which scoffs at ideals, told me that I was foolish to fight for
a principle. On the one hand there were sharp misery, the loss of
freedom, poverty and suffering for Polly: on the other, liberty and a
generous degree of affluence. We could hide ourselves, Polly and I, in
some remote corner of the world where no one knew; and our share of the
five millions, wealth even as wealth is reckoned in the day of wealth,
would put us far enough beyond the reach of want; nay, it would do
more--it would silence the gossiping tongues if there were any to wag.
Up and down the narrow limits of my cell I paced, praying at one moment
for strength to hold out to the end, and at the next cursing myself for
an idiotic splitter of hairs helpless to break away from the manaclings
of an idea. Love, reason, common sense were all ranged on the side of
the compromise with principle; and opposed to them there was only the
stubborn protest against injustice pleading feebly and despairingly for
its final hearing.
In the midst of the struggle the kitchen "trusty" brought the mid-day
meal, and for the first time in forty-eight hours I forced myself to eat.
A sound body, weakened only by anxiety and abstinence, is quick to
respond to a resumption of the normal. Under the food stimulus I felt
better, stronger. But now the strength was all on the side of yielding.
With the quickening pulses came the keen lust of life. To live, to be
free, to enjoy, in the years, few or many, of the little earthly span:
after all, these were the only realities.
Whitredge had left his fountain pen, and the papers--the letter to
Barrett and Gifford and the petition--were lying on the cot where I had
thrown them. For the last time I put the pleading protest under foot.
Freedom, a fortune, and Polly's happiness: the triple bribe was too great
and I uncapped the pen.
It was at this precise moment that footsteps in the corridor warned me
that someone was coming. A bit of the old convict secretiveness made me
hastily thrust the papers out of sight under the cot blankets, and at the
rattling of the key in the lock I stood up to confront--Whitredge.
"You?" I said. "I thought you were going to give me until to-morrow
morning."
He looked strangely perturbed, and the nervousness was also in his voice
when he said: "I meant to, Bert, but I've had a wire, and I've got to go
back to Glendale on this next train"--dragging his watch out of its
pocket and glancing at it hurriedly. "Those papers: you've had time
enough to think things over, and I'm sure you've made up your mind to do
the sensible thing. Let me have them so I can set things in motion
before I leave town."
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