Alternative histories (Fiction); Science fiction; Time travel -- Fiction; United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Fiction
The minute she had allotted this first voyage seemed fantastically
short and incredibly long. All the paradoxes she had brushed aside as
of no immediate concern now confronted her. Since she had gone back to
a time before she was born, she must have existed as a visitor prior
to her own conception; she could presumably be present during her own
childhood and growth, and by making a second and third visit, multiply
herself as though in facing mirrors, so that an infinite number of
Barbara Haggerwells could occupy a single segment of time.
A hundred other parallel speculations raced through her mind without
interfering with her rapid and insatiable survey of the commonplace
features of the barn, features which could never really be commonplace
to her since they proved all her speculations so victoriously right.
Suddenly she shivered with the bitter cold and burst into
teeth-chattering laughter. She had made such careful plans to visit on
the First of January—and had never thought to take along a warm coat.
She looked at her watch; only twenty seconds had passed. The temptation
to defy her agreement with Ace not to step outside the tiny circle
of HX-1’s operating field on the initial experiment was almost
irresistible. She longed to touch the fabric of the past, to feel
the worn boards of the barn, to handle as well as look. Again her
thoughts whirled with speculation; again the petty moment stretched and
contracted. She spent eternity and instantaneity at once.
Suppose.... But she had a thousand suppositions and questions. Was she
really herself in the flesh, or in some mental projection? A pinch
would do no good; that might be projection also. Would she be visible
to the people of the time, or was she a ghost from the future? Oh,
there was so much to learn, so much to encounter!
When the moment of return came, she again experienced the feeling of
dissolution, followed immediately by the light. When she opened her
eyes she was back.
Midbin rubbed his belly and then his thinning hair. “Hallucination,” he
propounded at last; “a logical, consistent hallucination. Answer to an
overriding wish.”
“You mean Barbara was never gone?” asked Ace. “Was she visible to
you—or Mr H or Hodge—during that minute?”
“Illusion,” said Midbin; “group illusion brought on by suggestion and
anxiety.”
“Nonsense,” exclaimed Barbara. “Unless youre accusing Ace and me of
faking youll have to account for what you just called the logical
consistency of it. Your group illusion and my individual hallucination
fitting so neatly together.”
Midbin recovered some of his poise. “The two phenomena are separate,
connected only by some sort of emotional hypnosis. Certainly your
daydream of having been back in 1900 is an emotionally induced
aberration.”
“And your daydream that I wasn’t here for a minute?”
“The eyes are quickly affected by the feelings. Note tears, ‘seeing
red’ and so forth.”
“Very well, Oliver. The only thing to do is to let you try HX-1
yourself.”
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