Alternative histories (Fiction); Science fiction; Time travel -- Fiction; United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Fiction
“I think Barbara wouldnt want her private thoughts published to the
world. You have to draw the line somewhere.”
Midbin put his head on one side and looked at Ace as though he were
difficult to see. “Now that’s interesting, Dorn,” he said; “I wonder
what turns a seeker after knowledge into a censor.”
“Are you going to start exploring my emotional pathology now?”
“Not interesting enough; not nearly interesting enough. Diagnosis while
you wait; treatment in a few easy instalments. Barbara now—there’s a
really beautiful case. Beautiful case; years of treatment and little
sign of improvement. Of course she wouldnt want her thoughts known.
Why? Because she’s happy with her hatred for her dead mother. Shocking
to Mrs Grundy; doubly ditto to Mister. Exaggerated possessiveness
toward her father makes her miserable. Thoughts known, misery
ventilated: shame, condemnation, fie, fie. Her fantasy—”
“Midbin!”
“Her fantasy of going back to childhood (fascinating; adult employs
infantile time-sequence, infantile magic, infantile hatreds) in order
to injure her mother is a sick notion she cherishes the way a dog licks
a wound. But without analogous therapy. Ventilate it. Ventilate it. Now
this girl’s case is bound to be simpler. Younger if nothing else. And
nice, overt symptoms. Bring her around tomorrow and we’ll begin.”
“Me?” I asked.
“Who else? Youre the only one she doesnt seem to distrust.”
It was annoying to have the girl’s puppylike devotion observed and
commented on. I realized she saw me as the only connection, however
tenuous, with a normal past; I had assumed she would turn naturally
after a few days to the women who took such open pleasure in fussing
over her affliction. However she merely suffered their attentions; no
matter how I tried to avoid her she sought me out, running to me with
muted cries which should have been touching but were only painful.
Mr Haggerwells’ telegram to the sheriff’s office at York had brought
the reply that a deputy sheriff would visit the haven “when time
permitted.” He had also telegraphed the Spanish legation who answered
they knew no other Escobars than Don Jaime and his wife. The girl might
be a servant or a stranger; it was no concern of His Most Catholic
Majesty.
The school uniform made it unlikely she was a servant but beyond this,
little was deducible. She did not respond to questions in either
Spanish or English, and it was impossible to tell if she understood
their meaning, for her blank expression remained unchanged. When
offered pencil and paper she handled them curiously, then let them
slide to the floor.
I wondered briefly if perhaps her intelligence was slightly subnormal,
but this was met by a firm, even belligerent denial from Midbin, whose
conclusion was confirmed, at least in my opinion, by her apparently
excellent coordination, her personal neatness and fastidiousness which
were far more delicate than any I’d been accustomed to.
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