But now they stood with their mother about their Father’s death-bed,
weeping; and a message was sent to Meng Street, though the feeling was
not entirely wanting that their rich relations were somehow or other to
blame for this misfortune too.
In the middle of the night the great bell downstairs rang; and as
Christian had come home very late and was not feeling up to much, Tom
set out alone in the spring rain.
He came just in time to see the last convulsive motions of the old
gentleman. Then he stood a long time in the death-chamber and looked
at the short figure under the covers, at the dead face with the mild
features and white whiskers. “You haven’t had a very good time, Uncle
Gotthold,” he thought. “You learned too late to make concessions and
show consideration. But that is what one has to do. If I had been like
you, I should have married a shop girl years ago. But for the sake of
appearances--! I wonder if you really wanted anything different? You
were proud, and probably felt that your pride was something idealistic;
but your spirit had little power to rise. To cherish the vision of an
abstract good; to carry in your heart, like a hidden love, only far
sweeter, the dream of preserving an ancient name, an old family, an old
business, of carrying it on, and adding to it more and more honour and
lustre--ah, that takes imagination, Uncle Gotthold, and imagination you
didn’t have. The sense of poetry escaped you, though you were brave
enough to love and marry against the will of your father. And you had
no ambition, Uncle Gotthold. The old name is only a burgher name, it
is true, and one cherishes it by making the grain business flourish,
and oneself beloved and powerful in a little corner of the earth. Did
you think: ‘I will marry her whom I love, and pay no attention to
practical considerations, for they are petty and provincial?’ Oh, we
are travelled and educated enough to realize that the limits set to
our ambition are small and petty enough, looked at from outside and
above. But everything in this world is comparative, Uncle Gotthold. Did
you know one can be a great man, even in a small place; a Cæsar even
in a little commercial town on the Baltic? But that takes imagination
and idealism--and you didn’t have it, whatever you may have thought
yourself.”
Thomas Buddenbrook turned away. He went to the window and looked out at
the dim grey gothic façade of the Town Hall opposite, shrouded in rain.
He had his hands behind his back and a smile on his intelligent face.
The office and title of the Royal Consulate of the Netherlands, which
Thomas Buddenbrook might have taken after his father’s death, went back
to him now, to the boundless satisfaction of Tony Grünlich; and the
curving shield with the lions, the arms, and the crown was once more
to be seen on the gabled front of the house in Meng Street, under the
“Dominus providebit.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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