Little Johann was to go to take his farewell of his grandmother’s
mortal remains. His father so arranged it, and, though Hanno was
afraid, he made not a syllable of objection. At table, the day after
the Frau Consul’s dying struggle, the Senator, in his son’s presence
and apparently with design, had commented harshly upon the conduct
of Uncle Christian, who had slipped away and gone to bed when the
patient’s suffering was at its height. “That was his nerves, Thomas,”
Gerda had answered. But with a glance at Hanno, which had not escaped
the child, the Senator had severely retorted that an excuse was not in
place. The agony of their departed mother had been so sore that one had
felt ashamed even to be sitting there free from pain--not to mention
entertaining the cowardly thought of trying to escape any suffering of
mind called up by the sight. From which, Hanno had gathered that it
would not be safe to object to the visit to the open coffin.
The room looked as strange to him as it had at Christmas, when, on the
day before the funeral, between his father and his mother, he entered
it from the hall. There was a half-circle of potted plants, arranged
alternately with high silver candelabra; and against the dark green
leaves gleamed from a black pedestal the marble copy of Thorwaldsen’s
Christ, which belonged in the corridor outside. Black crape hangings
fluttered everywhere in the draught, hiding the sky-blue tapestries and
the smiling immortals who had looked down from these walls upon so many
festive dinner-tables. Little Johann stood beside the bier among his
black-clad relatives. He had a broad mourning band on his own sailor
suit, and his senses felt misty with the scent from countless bouquets
and wreaths--and with another odour that came wafted now and then on a
current of air, and smelled strange, yet somehow familiar.
He stood beside the bier and looked at the motionless white figure
stretched out there severe and solemn, amid white satin. This was not
Grandmamma. There was her Sunday cap with the white silk ribbons, and
her red-brown hair beneath it. But the pinched nose was not hers, nor
the drawn lips, nor the sharp chin, nor the yellow, translucent hands,
whose coldness and stiffness one could see. This was a wax-doll--to
dress it up and lay it out like that seemed rather horrible. He looked
across to the landscape-room, as though the real Grandmamma might
appear there the next minute. But she did not come: she was dead. Death
had turned her for ever into this wax figure that kept its lids and
lips so forbiddingly closed.
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