Then Frau Permaneder flung herself down on her knees by the bed,
pressed her face into the coverlet, and wept aloud, surrendering
herself utterly and without restraint to one of those refreshing
bursts of feeling which her happy nature had always at its command.
Her face still streamed with tears, but she was soothed and comforted
and entirely herself as she rose to her feet and began straightway to
occupy her mind with the announcements of the death--an enormous number
of elegant cards, which must be ordered at once.
Christian appeared. He had heard the news of the Senator’s stroke in
the club, which he had left at once. But he was so afraid of seeing
some awful sight that he went instead for a long walk outside the
walls, and was not to be found. Now, however, he came in, and on the
threshold heard of his brother’s death.
“It isn’t possible,” he said, and limped up the stairs, his eyes
rolling wildly.
He stood at the bedside between his sister and his sister-in-law; with
his bald head, his sunken cheeks, his drooping moustaches, and his
huge beaked nose, he stood there on his bent legs, looking a little
like an interrogation-point, and gazed with his little round deep eyes
into his brother’s face, as it lay so silent, so cold, so detached
and inaccessible. The corners of Thomas’s mouth were drawn down in an
expression almost scornful. Here he lay, at whom once Christian had
flung the reproach that he was too heartless to weep at a brother’s
death. He was dead now himself: he had simply withdrawn, silent,
elegant, and irreproachable, into the hereafter. He had, as so often
in his life, left it to others to feel put in the wrong. No matter
now, whether he had been right or wrong in his cold and scornful
indifference toward his brother’s afflictions, the “misery,” the
nodding man, the spirit-bottle, the open window. None of that mattered
now; for death, with arbitrary and incomprehensible partiality, had
singled him out, and taken him up, and given him an awesome dignity and
importance. And yet Death had rejected Christian, had held him off,
and would not have him at any price--would only keep on making game of
him and mocking him with all these tricks and antics which nobody took
seriously. Never in his life had Thomas Buddenbrook so impressed his
brother as at this hour. Success is so definite, so conclusive! Death
alone can make others respect our sufferings; and through death the
most pitiable sufferings acquire dignity. “You have won--I give in,”
Christian thought. He knelt on one knee, with a sudden awkward gesture,
and kissed the cold hand on the coverlet. Then he stepped back and
moved about the room, his eyes darting back and forth.
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