Bellairs looked keenly vexed, and she hastened to add:--
"Not because I am--indifferent. No, no. I can't explain why the feeling
came. It was gone in a moment. And now--"
"Now you are happy?"
He caught her hand and she left it in his.
"Yes, very happy."
Bellairs bent over her and kissed her--as he lifted himself up a white
hand appeared on the rail of the companion that led from the lower to
the upper deck of the _Hatasoo_. Clarice wearily dragged herself up.
She was wrapped in a shawl and looked very ill. Betty ran to help her.
"I thought I must get a little air," she said feebly. "How d'you do, Mr
Bellairs?"
She sank down in a chair.
Bellairs felt like a man between two fires.
* * * * *
Two days later Lord Braydon gave his consent to his daughter's
engagement with Bellairs, and Lady Betty ran to tell Clarice. She had
not previously said a word to her friend of what had passed between her
and Bellairs. He had begged her to keep silence until he had spoken to
Lord Braydon, and she had promised and had kept her promise. But now she
rushed into the saloon where Clarice was playing Chopin, and, throwing
her arms round her friend, told her the great news. The body of Clarice
became rigid in her arms.
"And the king has consented," Betty cried.
The king was her father.
"Clarice, Clarice, isn't it wonderful?"
"Wonderful! I thought so when you told me. But already I begin to doubt
if it is."
"To doubt, Clarice?"
"To doubt whether anything a man does is wonderful."
That was all Clarice said. Then she kissed Betty, and went on playing
Chopin feverishly, while Betty told, to the accompaniment of the music,
all that was in her heart.
"And," she said at last, "I love him, Clarice; I love him intensely. I
shall always love him."
Clarice played a final chord and got up.
Bellairs lunched on the dahabeeyah that day and Clarice met him as
usual. Her manner gave no sign of any mental disturbance. Perhaps it was
curiously calm. He wondered a little, but was too happy to wonder much.
Joy made him cruel, for nothing is so cruel as joy. Only he was glad
that Clarice had so much pride, for he thought now that in her pride lay
his safety. He no longer feared that she would condescend to a scene,
and he even thought that perhaps she did not feel so deeply as he had
supposed.
"After all," he said to himself exultantly, "there's no harm done. I
need not have been so conscience-stricken. What is a pretty speech and a
kiss to a woman who has lived, travelled over the world, read widely,
thought many things? Now, if I had treated Betty in such a way I should
be a blackguard. She could not have understood. She could only have
suffered. I will never hurt her--Betty!"
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