France -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
Now this for example.... The faint glimmer of the night-lamp flickers
feebly upon the curtains and the furniture; Juliette is asleep, early
in the morning, the morning after our first night. One of her arms,
bare, rests upon the sheet; the other, also bare, is gracefully coiled
up under her nape. All around her face--which reflects the pallid
light of the bed, a face which looks like that of a murdered person,
with eyes encircled by dark rings--her loose black hair is scattered,
sinuous and flowing like waves! I contemplate her eagerly.... She is
sleeping close to me, with a deep calm sleep, like a child. And for
the first time possession occasions no regret, no disgust in me; for
the first time I am able to look at a woman who has just given herself
to me. I cannot express my feelings at this moment. What I feel is
something indefinable, something exceedingly sweet and at the same time
very grave and holy, a sort of religious ecstasy similar to the one
which I experienced at the time of my first communion.... I recognize
the same mystic transport, the same great and sacred awe; it is like
another revelation of God taking place in the transplendent light
of my soul.... It seems to me that God has come down to me for the
second time.... She sleeps, in the silence of the room, with her mouth
half-open, her nostrils motionless; she sleeps with a sleep so gentle
that I cannot even hear her breathing.... A flower on the mantlepiece
is there, withering, and a whiff of its dying fragrance reaches me. I
can't hear Juliette at all, she is only asleep, she is breathing, she
is alive and yet I can't hear her. I move nearer to her and gently bend
over her, almost touching her with my lips, and in an almost inaudible
voice I call her.
"Juliette!"
Juliette does not stir. But I feel her breath, fainter than that of the
flower, her breath always so fresh, with which at this moment there is
mingled, like a waft of warmth, her fragrant breath which blends with
an imperceptible odor of decay.
"Juliette!"
Juliette does not stir. But the sheet which follows the curves of her
body, showing the shape of her limbs, loosens itself into a rigid
crease, and the sheet looks to me like a shroud. And the thought of
death suddenly comes to my mind and lingers there. I begin to be afraid
that Juliette is dead.
"Juliette!"
Juliette does not stir. My whole being is now plunged into a frenzy
of fear, and while in my ears the distant knell resounds, around the
bed I see the light of a thousand funeral tapers trembling under the
vibrations of a de profundis prayer. My hair stands on end, my teeth
chatter and I shout, I shout:
"Juliette! Juliette!"
At last Juliette moves her head, heaves a sigh and murmurs, as if in a
dream:
"Jean!... My Jean!"
Forcefully I grasp her into my arms as if to defend her against some
one; I draw her toward me and trembling, with my blood running cold, I
beg her:
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