"'Not entirely,' I protested. 'It has a certain vogue in England also, I
assure you. And personally,' I added, 'I am bound to say it makes a
difference. I regret it.'
"'But,' said Mrs. Sarafov, and she turned her eyes upon her younger
daughter, who was going out with some dishes, 'But she must have a man
to look after her.' She regarded me attentively. 'I suppose you know
that she is very fond of you. She is always talking about how kind you
were to her on the ship. And in London. She says you liked her at
first. And I can't see,' she went on, 'why, if you regret it, as you
say, you didn't look after her yourself. She would have gone.'
"'And you think that would have made any difference?' I demanded. I was
very much disturbed at this sudden turn of things. I seemed to be
getting away from my cherished position as a super in the play. And it
was the emotion educed from this conversation that revealed to me how
these women had abandoned their life in America without regret. I had a
vision of it suddenly as I looked at the other daughter's face. She was
regarding me with a sort of raptness. The exquisite features glowed and
the bright, bronze-coloured eyes burned above purple shadows like lamps
above dark pools. Yes, I had a vision of it suddenly, and it was what we
call, lightly, cynically, disapprovingly, Romance. It was simply
this--that to them, what we deem a dangerous and useless appendage of
our spiritual life is a tremendous and vital need. So tremendous and so
vital that the external moral aspect of it was a matter of little
importance. To put the case in point, they were interested in me not
because I was a moral Englishman but because Artemisia was fond of me.
It was for them as simple as breathing to go with the being one loved.
And back of that there was another thing, which scared the modern and
moral being within me still more. It followed, from their perfectly
naïve and innocent faith in Romance, that a woman was not a political
equal of man, a strenuous co-educated, enfranchised voter, but a
possession. The crown of her achievement was to be possessed by the man
she loved. He might kill her or enslave her, but without men she was of
no importance whatever. And I suspected that my own attitude which, mind
you, is the attitude of most of us, to draw away at the approach of a
compromising emotion, was difficult to comprehend. Especially when, in
response to the inevitable question, I said I wasn't married or
promised. They harped on it, those two, while the younger girl was in
the kitchen. It was evident Artemisia had confided a great deal to them
and they had talked and talked, turning this peculiar problem over in
their minds, the problem of a man who persisted in remaining a super in
the play. Barbarous of them? Well, let us say mediæval. They lived in a
world of harsh limitations and extraordinary latitudes. They were
forbidden divorce and were accustomed to neighbours with a plurality of
wives.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account