"After all," he remarked, suddenly stopping and staring down at the
deck, "I lost her. I have said to you, at the beginning, that if her
story means anything it means that love was nothing, and I had this in
mind, for I lost her. And of what avail, I ask you, is an emotion so
independent of our individual destinies that it can culminate at the
very moment of disaster? It may be, of course, that what we call love
is only the bright shadow on earth of some ulterior celestial passion;
but life is too short and too unsatisfactory for one to cultivate such
an exalted faith. And we crave a little logic of Fate when we suffer.
If, for example, the crazy Nikitos, true to his word, had suddenly
appeared before us in that narrow street off the _Via Egnatia_, and
destroyed her as many were destroyed that day, one could submit as to a
sinister but tangible manifestation of human folly. But to have happened
as it did ... there was no sense in it. It was as though that girl, who
had been from her birth a waif, the unhappy sport of spurious emotions,
had angered Fate by stumbling upon something genuine after all, and was
dismissed into the darkness in a moment of irascible petulance. And I
suppose that I, if a man had any inherited right to expect that the law
of compensation should be put in operation in his favour, should feel a
grievance. But as I have remarked more than once, my attempts to be
anything more than a super in the play have not been a shining success.
So we can leave that out. There is no need to lose faith in Compensation
because it is somewhat delayed....
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